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Friday, July 30, 2010 @ 11:28 AM
Hello peeps! I'm bck updating. Well. Wad shall I update? Sch? Erm. Sch had been stressful forde past few wks. Tts also part of my reason why I'm nt tt unhappy for the past few days. Jux felt tt it's too pressurizing, so suffocating. Well. I understand tt I'm alrdy in the third yr. And it's natural to feel that. Bt isn't it far too much? Somehow I felt tt my life had been freaking hectic since starting sch. No tym for enjoyment. When was my last tym tt I really enjoyed myself? Throwing all those problems aside and really have a gd laugh? Even I've missed count. Wa can I say my brain is filled with proj test codin. Hw to work? Hw to make it work? Who was dere to help me? Nobody? Yes! I'm seriously alone to face so much prob. Nt only sch work bt also family prob, communication prob. Sometimes hw I wish I could break down just lyk tt. Bt it didn't. I dun want to make my parents worried. The amount of tears I've fallen for this sem. Nobody knows. I can even put aside my pride and walked bck hm with tears on my face. I didn't even think before that I'll land into such a miserable situation. Who can help me? Nobody? The amount of things in me was overfilling. So much so tt I'm live buried by it. And I can sense tt my health was not really tt great either. I've become weaker and weaker be it physically or mentally. Have your ever gt de feeling, when you are super unhappy super moody the kind of feelin where the tears will roll off yr eyes at any moment and yet you still have to put on a smile. Yr mentality yr personality is constantly reminding you to hold on to yr tears. You are nt to cry in front of them. They are no one to you. Neither are they close with you. Yes. This line have been constantly repeating to myself thru out the sch life. Jux imagine. You were in my shoe. I wasn't even looking forward to sch. I've treated goin to sch as part of my responsibility. Nt a place for entertainment. My main objective was to grab all de knowledge fr de lecturer tts all. Yes I knw those ppl who have been with me thru out my 19 yes of life will definitely wun believe. Where is tt sunny carefree cheerful playful strong py? My ans Is it had diminished fr me. I'm nw weak no longer sunny no longer cheerful. Mayb what mrs L told me right fr de start was freaking correct. Nv ever b too gentle towards ppl. Some ppl will simply take advantage of it and climb over my head. I chose nt to listen and this is wad I get in return. Hw great is tt?
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