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Monday, January 31, 2011 @ 3:16 PM

a brand new wk.
a brand new post.
its gonna b a short short wk for this wk.
this wk actually is de cny wk.
hwever, i still dun get any atmosphere in me.
its gettin so bad each day.
as bad as nt gettin worried of nt gettin enough clothings, no heels, nt enough accessories. so on and so for.
i dunno wad de hell is goin so wrong with me.
my day wasnt tt great either.
i'm so unwillin to wake up to get to sch.
slack on de bed till 715 or later.
even sis also called out and told me to quickly wake up and prepare to sch.
as it is rainin, askin me to go out early.
normally i'll b rushin lyk mad.
bt nt for today.
due to de weather?
nah. cant b. cos its nt de first day it rained at de timin.
i'm jux simply unhappy.
bt i'm nt sure wad i'm unhappy of.
deliberately nt to carry any form of umbrella with me.
walked in de rain.
its been quite sometime i lasted did tt.
bt its nt gettin any better.
in fact it ruined my day much further.
i jux cant b bothered to do some stuff.
lunch break also deliberately walk in de rain.
i alrdy dun care wads my image.
yes tts hw bad my day was.
no matter hw much i dun feel lyk talkin, smilin.
i still forced myself to do so.
i dun wan any care and concern.
neither do i wan to confide to anybody.
i jux wan to b alone.
jux let me b.
i'm so sick of everything.