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Saturday, March 5, 2011 @ 11:28 AM

another post of the week.
hw time really flies. its really just a blink of an eye.
its been a wk after fyp.
spent my tym out of de hse, within de hse.
applyin jobs.
went for uob interview.
bt still, its better to apply more jobs jux in case ba.
mood wasnt really tt great on tt interview itself.
tt type of feelin, nth could b referred to.
its been long, ever since i had tt kind of feelin.
breakin down, tears wanted to roll down so much tt mornin, yet i cant.
constantly remindin myself, i'm all dressed up, if i were to let my tears flow, it will b smudge and i'll b a clown.
my smile was worst den cryin.
i tot puttin myself to bed would make me better.
bt it doesnt seem to b.
couldnt really fall into deep slp.
went gym in de evenin, had some small chat with cousin.
den slightly better.
wad i can say was tt day, de tym was really crawlin.
nth could jux brin bck my mood.
tt nite, a couple of ppl came to talk to me.
all appreciated alright.((:
only slept at 4 plus tt nite.
chat over de phone with sis. and i believe she knws mostly wad i'm thinkin.
bt still, i didnt told her a-z.
cos i'm still thinkin, wad made me to haf this conclusion? do i really wan it? if so, why am i sufferin so much? am i foolish to haf tt decision in mind? and many many more. it seems to b endless.
i cant stop thinkin. dere are jux simply so much qn in my mind, all without any solutions. i wanted de solutions, yet i cant figure it out. shld i b mad at myself?