melinda's reality

2012-01-28T12:32:00.003+08:00

hello people. here i am, back updating on this dead blog of mine. its been really long since i sat down and update this space of mine. first and foremost, a very prosperous and happy new year to all. hopefully your had enjoyed yourselves all these while. life had been hectic back then. work wise, is always a big sigh. i also dont know why, i cant communicate with him. my patience simply drops to negative. the anticipation for work daily is getting lesser and lesser each day. sigh. really is speechless. headache. of course there are nice people around too. they really take very good care of me in the office. the joys that we share, and many more. as for family wise, i also dont wish to mention much here. hectic hectic is still hectic. sometimes i really think how pathetic it is. dont they feel the shame on them? shall do a proper update next time ba. enjoy! and bye for now. (:

2011-09-16T21:50:00.002+08:00

back updating. yup. i know. its been long since i came invading back here. was quite busy for the past few weeks or months. work was hectic due to the loading, cut overs, vendors and many many more, and more on maintaining the new system now. which is also known to be SAP. what i want to say out loud is that, my probation is finally over. and i can sense myself like finally got blend into the company. or should i say, the company is getting used to me around more? its like finally i just open my mouth and talk without any barriers. got questions just ask. and i just realized that they are great people. i'm just like their child in their eyes. knowing that i'm unhappy, down, they are just willing to come and accompany me. sitting next to me, talk to me, joke with me just to make me smile. teach me patiently, giving me a tap on my shoulder, and giving me a gentle hug, helping me bit by bit, giving me a big smile whenever i look at your, and all. all are appreciated.(: made me felt like a pampered little child all this while. thank you!(: as for personal life. i didn't share much so far. those people whom are close with me should know my life for the past few days had been upside down, inside out. a major mood swing, a thunderstorm, or whats so ever. it went so wrong, tears are like tap water running. crying to bed, soak with tears in the morning, cant sleep. eyes are just like panda. my sis they all still thought i got dump or got bully till so cham, cry till like that. till they told me there will be someone better in the further. i think they are relieve to see i'm perfectly alright for now. but the problem is, I'M NOT DUMP! really is angry lehh. although i sometimes really think that there are small pebbles that are blocking along the way. why everybody can move on so smoothly when i always get jam in the middle of no where. SIGH! what to do? i dont have any idea. can somebody guide me through?

2011-07-03T01:02:00.002+08:00

hey peeps. its going to be another update. i know i've not been updating this dead blog of mine as frequent as it used to be. partially was because of my work, its really after a long day at work, using lappy in the office, you wouldn't feel like touching your personal lappy after work when you reach home. work had been rather fine, basically i'm really doing nothing for the past few days, sitting down by my desk every single day. but i was on 2 days mc this week. so still quite ok. eye and face partially swollen. got a lot better. but i dont know why is my that recovering eye still giving me blur vision despite having my specs on. thats kind of weird. maybe will observe myself a few days more, if its not going to get any better i'm going to see doctor again ba. had been spamming people with emails at work recently. chasing people for this and that. which i hate the most. cant they be more responsible and be more efficient? i'm employed to be a procurement assistant and not loan sharks chasing for documents! it can be quite irritating uh! actually sis asked me whether i want to go and work with her today at kaki bukit. but i turned down, i must be really mad if i'm going to work everyday. went over to several banks today to settle some stuff. hang out with mum and bro in the afternoon aftermax. my mood already kind of bad and people are trying to get onto my nerves and thus its worst now. thankyou uh! actually thought of settling the event page for my 21st, but my mood is so bad that i did it have way, not much details are up. maybe next week i'll then start inviting. time is getting shorter and i've really yet to settle down on the caterings and many more. i've really got no mood to do anything. ): but at least, what i can say is my guest list is up. so should be quite ok i hope. i hope i wont mess up everything due to my mood uh. anyway, thats all for now. shall update again soon.

2011-06-18T18:45:00.004+08:00

hey peeps, here i am updating. my apology for going missing from here eversince last month. what have i been doing recently? maybe that's what is my main concern for updating here. well, my life had been upside down, ever since he got enlisted on 7th june. the amount of unwillingness i had, nothing could describe it. the last day before he enlist, he chat with me, i teared. i teared while chatting with him. i dont know why, maybe i got too used to him. chatting with him everyday, confiding to him everyday, laugh with him everyday, teasing him everyday. naturally, he had became part of my life, my standard routine. and all of the sudden, everything is going to be limited. i admit the fact that i missed him, starting the very next day, the day he enlist, i woke up late. and i'm late to send him the very last text before he left. the image of him was floating in me, day and night, for days. text him on the second day and he replied on the third. when i got to know that he isn't doing fine in there, the worried creep into me. the fear i had which i didnt had previously. i didnt know what to do. just waited for his reply every night. called up and chatted with him verbally on the phone, when i got to know that his situation turned bad. which got shocked when i received the news, that i cant stop myself from calling up after a few text. it got better for me, when i started my work earlier this week, at least something occupied me for the time being. waking up early in the morning everyday, worked. reached home there is nothing that i wanted to do, all i wanted was to bathe, have dinner, perhaps watch tv and head to bed. my energy was simply drained. texted him when i was on bed, till i fell asleep. perhaps he slept too. due to his battery limitation, he said he will only text me after he book out which is this coming week, friday the 24th. its only a few days, since i last saw his name appearing on my phone, and i'm kind of not used to it. its less than a week for him to book out. i should endure a bit more ba. from then, than should ask him about his condition. imagine, when i met up with sis for K boxing session, those sad songs couldn't stop my tears from flowing. but i had to endure it, so as not make it that obvious that i'm really worried, unhappy, and that missed him that much. the feeling was miserable. for my work wise, erm, all i can say is i am like a blur sotong, missing the transportation for the first few days, the hr had given me the wrong timing and the car plate number. no choice but to cab there on the first day, and my 15 bucks gone. but i'm real luckily that i got nice colleagues which bring me to take the transport after work. i couldnt find the transport still on the second day as its different bus and driver, the person that i remembered on the bus on the first day wasnt there too. and those people who know me will know that i dont speak up, but second day i took another alternative which is train followed by bus. my colleagues, supervisor were shocked when they realized that i cant catch up the bus still. no choice on the way back on the second day, i picked up my courage and asked one of them after they alight, and i managed to find her on the third day morning. i was like finally! and from then on i managed to get the transport everyday. (: as for my work wise, i'm still trying to get the hang of it, for those simple types lo. those complicated ones, i'm still having headache. anyway, i'm working in the outsourcing department, as a procurement assistant. one of my colleagues going to leave soon, and i think i'll struggle like mad. there are more things to pick up from next week onwards. i'm so dead. ): shall update again soon. heading out for dinner with family. its going to be father's day! so i shall take this opportunity to wish all the daddy a happy fathers day! enjoy! (:

2011-05-30T16:04:00.009+08:00

its gonna be an update. this post is gonna be more on graduation. i shall let the pics speak the words.

my mummy in nyp, Lini. first shot of the day! ((:

my ladies with EI08 course coordinator, Elaine Kwok.((:

with my last study semester classmate, Fathin. ((:

my nyp close buddy, sis, Joanne Cheng. ((:

my close friend, my piggy, my guardian angel in disgust, QiFeng. ((:

my lovely ladies in nyp. HuiLing, Joanne Cheng. ((:

my lovely ladies in nyp. Joanne Cheng and Lini. ((:

with our certs! ((:

photoshot with Elaine Kwok. take 1! ((:

photoshot with Elaine Kwok. take 2! ((:

with TseLyn! ((:

beside the pond, outside of koufu! after ceromony.((:

before the commencement of ceromony.((:

my fyp room mate, BoonHan! ((:

half of EI0809! ((:

from the pics, can really see my robe is really big right?!? makes me as though i've put on alot of weight!): tsksk! more photos coming up when people start uploading. ((:

I've left the door with the latch on, with the key below the carpet. will you pick up the key and push open the door one day? or maybe one day, I've decided to remove the key off from the carpet, closing the door slowly.

2011-05-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

hey peeps. its another update. ((: missed me? this few days, can i say i'm busy with my tai-tai life? LOL! shoppin, facial, salon. anyway. i've alrdy gotten my top for graduation, as all my tops were dark in my wardrobe. and dark colour doesn't really stand out with the robe. no choice, but to get a lighter tone. actually, thought of light pink, light yellow, grey. but in the end still didn't get those colours. LOL! gotten white from G2000. although i protested white colour right from the start, no choice, i still end up gettin it. hahahahah! the only thing that is left, was my heels. should i just wear my that killer heels or should i get a pair new one? nvm! i still got time to decide till next week! how time really flies. its my graduation next week! which also means that my fat bro's birthday is coming too. last night was horrible, sleeping early and end up waking up early too. ): as early as 230am!!! head back to sleep only 5 plus in the morning! ): was tossing all around. and can't get back to sleep. listened to songs, watch videos, tweeting, facebook. and grandma pulled me out of bed as early as 7 plus in the morning. accompanied her to polyclinic for her monthly checkup. everything settled at around 11am. and head over to my late uncle's place for some praying. stayed there and waited for my cousin to come over from school. brought the 2 brats to mac. disturb them until we felt so evil. LOL! imagine i'm snatching fries with a 6 years old kid. LOL! had great laughter while disturbing! LOL! uh no! when did i start to be so zekak? must be under my cousin's influence. :X LOL! after that bring the 2 of them back and head home to fetch my fat bro, hanged all the laundry as well. while my cousin went to fetch another niece of mine. slacked awhile before bringing them back home. ok for some reason i went there for awhile and head back home. took nap as i really cant stand anymore. should be long enough le ba. shall update again soon. got to wake up early tmr, and its gonna b a long long day again! ):

2011-05-15T12:40:00.002+08:00

well. here i am. bck updatin. actually deres nth much happenin this few days. just some amazin thing tt is i went bck to cards and such for a day and went over to help out with my uncle for several nites. ytd as usual went over to my uncle's side. i was de leader for ytd. luckily nth much happen for my side. just de total amount doesnt tally. bt wadever it is. everything are solved within a few mins. uh ya. ytd ah yi went with me too. of course had a great chat with her. and she asked me to celebrate my 21st. wahahahaa. shall tell mum lata tt her sis is standin on de same line with me. LOL! bt de prob nw is, de location wise. dey wan somewhere nearer. although i always tot tt its always standard place. aloha, costa sand. bt due to some convenient issues. i think i had no choice bt to place it somewhere nearer. fr wad i heard fr ah yi, its really true la. for family wise, it will b inconvenient. especially when de young ones are still young while de elderly are alrdy so old. and i think most probably mine will b super early i think. as my sis will b havin exams as fr wad i had planned previously. so mayb will b early july i guess. dunno? shall see hw first ba. tts all for nw.

2011-05-09T09:47:00.002+08:00

another postin. a short one. theres something tt i wan to share. ya i knw its early in de mornin, and its a mon! its a gd news tt i'm gonna share. and tt is. i'm goin to let go off all my unhappiness. everything is none of my business fr nw on. i'm goin to stay as a happy kid just like i am right fr de start. i'm learnin to b independent, just like wad i used to b. i'm really awake fr everything. everything is restin down, at least for the time bein. which is really a gd sign. it really feels so much much better.

2011-05-06T12:34:00.003+08:00

here i am. bck to bloggin. yupyup. why am i having a feeling that i'm gettin weaker and weaker each day? is it because i'm coopin myself too much? or isit because there are stuff that makes me think till i've fallen sick? am i too unhappy till de point tt everything seems to b collapsin in me? life wasnt fair. or shld i say, each one of your tt are placed next to me, is part of god's arrangement? some will stay with me all along, some will leave after sometime, when they have completed their mission that was arranged to help me overcome some stuff that i've been goin thru as part of my life? why am i always the one, findin helpless after someone left me alone? ppl had been constantly remind me, not to trust somebody too much, not to devote too much on someone, not to depend on someone too much. as time past by, i understand all these terms. cause everybody are wearing a mask, you will nv knw who is true to you, you dunno when de person will suddenly turn a cold shoulder to you, or walk away out of your life one day, you wont knw who will just back stab you right at the very next moment. i understand de fact that, sometimes you really nid time to see how someone's true colour. but all in all, after so long, although i've learned all these, why am i fallin into de same situation. am i too native, to really believe in everything. ppl treat me nice, i can treat tt person nicer. am i too dumb to believe tt everything will eventually remains wad it is right fr de beginnin? i can endure anything, but not ppl givin me cold shoulders. these few days, i've been thinkin alot. so much so. some triggered my tears. yupyup. i knw i'm under too much pressure recently. quarrelin with ppl under de same roof wasnt easy, in fact it was stressful. things were nt goin on as smoothly as before. ppl goin in and out of my life. i've been botherin too much recently. fr de basics like family, to maintainin basic relationships, to work, to myself, and many many more. last nite, i was thinkin over some stuff. yupyup. i hate myself for where i am today. i hate myself for bein so weak, nt able to push you aside at that period of time. hate myself to trust. have you ever wondered why i wanted to push you away so much at times? one of de reason was i'm really afraid of fallin for you, and its de fact. its not wad i'm willin or not. its something tt i nid to do at times. at times, your words, your actions really touched, shocked me. who will really read up my blog, givin me all de ans? who is de one who gt tt panicked and dunno hw to comfort, gettin help fr one of my close lady? who is de one tt cheer me up, no matter hw moody my day was? who is de one, tt stay up late at nite just to knw wads goin on, on my bad day, despite havin to work de very nxt mornin? who is de one who nv fail to wish me luck on my phone for every single interviews? who is de one that will text and asked hw was my day? who is de one, accompanied me by de pond durin fyp, when my mood wasnt really dere, makin me smile?... many many more. shocked tt i rmb all these? yes, it seems alittle alittle at times, bt when it gt bundled up, hw much is all these? yup. its infinite, its huge. its hard for a normal person nt to fall for it. bt nw. with de sudden change, i really dunno hw to react to this situation. had a little chat with my lady last nite. just hope tt its nt wad she concluded.

2011-04-30T17:35:00.002+08:00

its so gonna b another update. well. this few days had been rather hell life for me. and seriously is so freakin fked up. i'm so goin to b mad over stuff. and ya. with all those rubbish goin on my life, i've fell sicke. yupyup. fever came knockin up on me just a few hrs ago. and yupyup. i'm so nt goin to rest. i mayb stubborn, childish to haf actin on this, despite knwin wad is de consequences of nt restin when sick. yupyup. so no matter hw much your so goin to ask me rest, i'm so nt listenin to it. or your wan to quarrel with also can. i dun mind. yes. i'm really freakin pissed off for de tym bein. i've gt an idiot disturbin. another unknown person askin me out without knwin who de hell is tt. i dun even knw who de hell passed on my msn. i dun even haf tt freakin person's fb. i dun even knw wad de hell gender is tt person. askin who passed on the msn, dere was no reply. and ya. freakin fk. i'm so freakin irritated for nw. cb. yes. ppl say tt i'm hurtin myself for no reason. bt wad de fk your had on your mind? hw de fk your knw nth is goin on since i'm stayin at home all day?!?!?! to b frank. i think i'm so goin under depression anytime for nw. imagine. tears fallin almost everyday. and tt dere are nobody whom you are comfortable to talk to. despite of this age, everybody thinks tt you are alrdy a grown up. and thus throwin every single thing to you. dey are havin so much confidence tt you are able to do well. yupyup. wad upsets me most, was when i really wanted them to b dere. i knw all these were impossible. sometimes haf your ever thought tt de need of family members are much much more important when compared with friends. so wad if i have a bigger grp of friends ard me? and yupyup. of cos dere are some other stuffs too. i think this is just so much closed up to me. tt i cant post it up. and and and. wad i can say was i can sense tt everything is goin apart for nw. dere are some stuff which i'm nt able to control? wtf is this? why are all these rubbish comin one after another to me?

2011-04-28T19:19:00.004+08:00

here i am. doin an update. anyway. today was my dad's birthday. so yupyup. happy birthday uh, laodou! ((: yes. he is laodou and i'm his xiaodou. LOL! anyway. today wasnt really a very gd day despite its my dad's birthday. a short update. went over to amk, to sign up nebo for 29 bucks for 3 yrs. de benefits lyk nt too bad. and deres quite alot of vouchers too. gt de card on de spot and trained bck to yt, to collect dad's cake fr crystal jade's bread. hopefully, it will b nice. this post i won't b sharin all de stuff tt i'm thinkin. only partially. yupyup. i knw. my tweets were emo. cos i saw somebody otw bck home. was tt lucky or vice versa? i wasnt sure. bt it really made me think really alot. yes. i knw i'm really foolish to think bck such thing. bt it triggered me to recall wad he told me at tt period of tym. complete your studies and we shall see by den. yupyup. and nw i am. completed my studies. and ya. i knw i was really foolish to believe tt. its lyk waitin for something without any outcome. and while thinkin, this had came into my mind, tt questioned myself too. why am i alway waitin aimlessly, something tt might nt have any outcome at de end of de day? 3 yrs ago, mayb i'm still young tts why i wasnt thinkin tt much. bt why am i doin de same thing again after 3 yrs? although de duration will b shorter. i dunno? i really dunno wad de outcome will b. sometimes, i jux wanted to b assure with something. bt somehow its nt given. ok. enough of my grumblin. and i shall spare myself fr all those thinkin for de tym bein. shall update you guys soon. ((: enjoy!

2011-04-20T12:11:00.003+08:00

hey peeps. yupyup! its me again! LOL! wad kind of nonsense? this blog belongs to me isnt it? if i'm not the one updatin, den who? anyway. this post i think it will b kind of short. yupyup. as usual. slackin at home! and ya! i've commence a war with my siblings eversince last wk. yupyup. dey are nth bt rubbish, nonsense. wtf? i think theres nth wrong tt i did. so who cares. and with this kind of stupid situation, makes me dun feel lyk stayin at home. really gt too mad till de point tt it make me became a big baby cryin for a few days. emotions were nt tt right eversince last wk. it cant b hidden. tears are jux lyk runnin tap, runnin non stop. and ya. i think some were really shocked and dunno how to comfort me. thanks alot! especially tt silly piggy of mine. textin sis tellin her. lol. ((: yupyup. his de one who nv failed to cheer me up, make me laugh, smile and play with me. deres gonna b another interview tmr. wish me luck! anyway. more and more ppl goin to b enlistin soon! ): yupyup. lesser and lesser ppl playin with me! ): just hope everything will zoom past as quick as possible.

to b honest, i'll miss all those days. :'(

2011-04-11T22:48:00.003+08:00

hey peeps. shall do an update nw. how should i describe my past few days? smooth? nah. nt really. as usual, wun b missin out the part of sendin resumes. and i went for one today. de location wasnt really that complicated, although it really spent me quite sometime lookin at de map last nite before i slp. almost missed the stop which i supposed to alight, luckily u stood up immediately and de driver noticed me. lol. if nt i wouldnt know where i'm goin to land to again. what i can say is that the environment not too bad. not too deserted as what i think also. but the chances of gettin into the job, i also wont claim that it will be high. lol. nvm! deres always one comin up! ((: *hopefully i can really stay this optimistic level!* yupyup. as those who really caught up with me these few days would have know what is goin on ard me. which is kind of drivin me insane. yupyup. the same old stuff repeatin again. and this time round i think its gettin fr bad to worst uh. is it by chance, she is tryin to grab some attention fr her daughters? i'm so goin to wash my hands off fr all these nonsense uh. kind of irritated. ok. enough of that. slept ard 2 plus last nite. checkin on de map while waitin for my hair to dry. slept only for ard 4 hrs plus? and i got up to prepare stuffs for interview. didnt walk much in jp, went home straight. when i got home my siblings were still in their sweet dreams. i was lyk wah! felt lyk fallin onto de bed and slp tgt with them. bt my bro's phone which is chargin in my room is disturbin. and thus, i took his phone and place nxt to him in his room. and he woke up, and start disturbin me usin my sis's newly bought dslr. ): went facial in de afternoon with sis, shopped ard jp with her for awhile. went over to hse nearby and bought some fastfood bck home. the funny part starts off when my sis went over to the counter and order while i stood nxt to her. den i look at her mind thinkin, shld b new comer uh. then my sis look at the way she prepare the stuff, she didnt even had de mind of collectin the payment first, till my sis asked her, can i make de payment first? for de first tym she didnt reply her, till she repeat herself again. den she collect the payment. ok. the restaurant is completely nt crowded at all, the very most only 2 table filled with customer. then the way she serve is like super duper slow. imagine, she alrdy prepared the drinks, den when she cover it, it leaks alittle on top of de cover, and she remove the cover pourin away the drink to make it nt so full. we were like orh ok. then after that she saw us standin by the counter for quite sometime, she say why not your take a seat first? den my sis exploded to me. take a seat? we are in fast food lehh? nt havin zi zha in coffeeshop lehh. still must wait uh? LOL! ahahahhaha! funny right? den went home we told our dad abt it. then he say your shld haf ordered, then dun wan to collect payment right, you go up to her and say i dun wan alrdy. LOL. go coffeeshop and buy fried chicken, faster and cheaper! i was like laughin. then i replied sayin, ehh. nt bad lehh. still can buy 3-4 chickens home! LOL! hahahahha! enough of the entertainment, i shall update till here for the time being. shall update again soon! ciaos!

2011-04-04T02:31:00.003+08:00

can i say tt i dont knw how i feel anymore?
i've been so lost, in my own world, my own maze.
tt i've became numb towards some stuff.

till recently i jux noticed, actually my numbness wasnt tt bad, in fact its reducin.
at least i still get touched by the things done by de ppl surroundin me. i'm actually able to feel sad for ppl, lyrics. i'm still able to sense some others which i didnt for quite sometime. i managed to understand wads de meanin of simple things are able to brin a smile on my face. a real smile, bt nt in any form of hidden sadness. a song managed to trigger my tears. i always thought, makin ppl ard me will make me better, will make them think tt i'm always alright. i guess i'm wrong. i admit de fact, i cant hide my emotions well. nt as well as those in de past. i'll tend to make ppl worried over me. especially those who notice me in a few moments.

life wasnt fair, unless we are willin to claim those by ourselves. neither anybody is borned to b smart, to b gd lookin. dere is always a way to achieve something, as long as you are willin to try. nth is impossible. i'll learn to prioritize myself more. treat myself better. although its gonna b tough, bt i'm willin to try still. don't blame yourself for bein slow, bt blame yourself if you stop.

2011-03-28T01:40:00.002+08:00

what is just so wrong with me?
its just so bad.
bad till de point, i've gt to force something down my stomach.
despite i've really gt no appetite at all.
suddenly i've got so much thinkin.

who can i head to, when i'm filled with sadness?
who can i head to, when i'm fallin apart?
who can i head to, when my tears are on the verge of rollin of the corner of my eyes?
who can i head to, when i'm so in need to confide to someone?

i nid to talk to someone soon. ):

2011-03-22T22:41:00.003+08:00

hey peeps.
yup. i'm in return to update my this blog.
and also to update you readers. (:
anyway last wk. i'm nt exaggerated, i'm really havin interview fr mon all de way to fri. erm. hw to say uh? i kind of turn down de 2 job offers. de first job was sales executive. yup. i may b lucky to b shortlisted for de 2nd round of interview, bt after havin a second thought, i think i cant hold the job well ba. i cant imagine me standin in de public and promotin products, gettin rejections fr de public. its kind of demoralizin i think. wad i can say is, if you gt de courage to approach strangers and promote your product, not afraid of rejections, de job is nt bad uh. yup, bt i cant see myself in dere. tt 2nd round of interview was quite lengthy. it took nearly half of my day. briefin and briefin, interview with de director and i kind of screwed it upside down. den went down to one of de roadshows tt dey setup. yup. seems fun, interestin. bt too bad i cant see myself in de job. so after returnin bck to the company and had de final round of interview, i just speak my mind uh. as for de 2nd job. actually i've officially gotten de job, and startin on 1st april. bt due to de deserted-ness, and losin my way twice on my 2 visits. i started to doubt whether shld i really pick up de job. yup. after some real considerations, and some opinions fr some of them, i've decided to turn down de job.

as for this wk, yup. went for interview today. it rained all de way. bus-ed down to town. de temperature was freezin, tt my fingers turned numb. nt i'm tryin to brag, bt my phone is so cold tt when i alight fr de bus itself, my phone's screen became misty. if my phone were to really die of jux lyk tt wad happen? after de interview walked ard in far east with my killer heels, and shopped ard lot1 tgt with cousin. yup. i dun feel de pain, until evenin tym my back and my leg was achin lyk mad. laid down on de bed for quite sometime. tmr gt 2 rounds of interview, i think i must b mad, arrangin interviews on de same day, different location. nvm, jux gt to endure. one day. anyway, dad arranged us to go cleanin of tomb this comin sat. yupyup. for qingmingjie. hopefully it will b a sunny day! anyway, today was de released of results for nyp. yup. hopefully everybody had gotten their desired result. yup. for mine, wad can i say was, i expected uh. dun worry, its nt in any form of bad news. yupyup. lol. tts all for nw, shall update again soon. (:

2011-03-12T12:54:00.003+08:00

its sat!
well. i've realised tt i've posted so much recently.
the number of post is increasin tremendously.
i dunno why.
i protest or in fact hate tt bunch of ladies tt much.
so much so, whenever i heard ppl mentionin their names, i felt lyk pukin or even gets irritated tt much.
how on earth, dere are such bitches?
ok, i'm nt gonna criticize them to the point whereby they are worthless, but wad can i find something which i think tt its nt sore to my eyes on them? appearance, attitude,characteristic, first impression failed so much in me. so much so i dun even feel lyk interactin with them. i dun deny de fact tt i gossip once in awhile, bt dere shld b still somethings tt shld b kept and nt brat every single thing out. pls spare a thought of others. haf you guys thought if one day its de other way round and you so happened to hear it? who do you ppl think you are to meddle other ppl stuff when you are not even presentable to others? pls do a self check before criticizin on others. anyway, i dun haf to repeat the fact tt nobody is perfect in de world. and, neither one of your looks pretty enough to go ard hurtin others. talkin brainlessly. hurtin ppl with your words. repeatin de same line on a different person at de same timin. criticisin them. wtf? or shld i say nobody is perfect, neither you yourself. why shld you correct others when you yourself is worst den a beast. if you cant appreciate de thought of others, den jux forget it. keep your mouth shut and get lost. sometimes, its jux only your presence will destroy one's day. so it will b better if you hide yourself in one corner, where nobody can see you. anyway. even if your wan to gossip, pls do it in a smart way, leakin out somewhere and gettin into victim's surroundin ears, tt simply shows something. hw failure it is.

2011-03-11T19:01:00.007+08:00

hey peeps.
its jux a super random post, and also a update.
had jux managed to change de skin of the blog.
decided to put bck my music.
i'm still wonderin shld i put bck my chatbox.
woke up by a phone call this mornin.
everything seems to b so blur.
i only realized something which is,
i've been headin down to raffles so much recently.
anyway. it was jux some small grumblin here and dere.
wasted my another day by watchin tv, watch drama, changin blogskin.

jux a small conclusion afterall these couple of days, the things tt is happenin surroundin as well as fr de dramas tt i've watched.

i dun understand de fact whereby why do ppl disappoint others when they knw tt dey shldnt even do it at the first place? does an apology really clear off everything? nope, definitely not. its de same as no point cryin over spilled milk's logic. why do ppl tend to think tt girls are weaker den guys? why do guys tend to think tt girls shld fall on them whenever dey needs help. have you ever wonder, lets say wad if one day de pillar jux vanished one day, wad will happen to de girl? she will definitely lose her balance and fall, her world will simply collapse, turned upside down, leavin her in a world of darkness. why are there so much bitches in de surroundin, creatin a nuisance out of themselves, talkin without their thinkin caps on. when everything can b stop by shuttin up their mouth. dere are why do ppl make broken promises when dey knw tt it will start hurtin de other party when dey managed to figure it out. dere are jux so much why in my brain? so much so i cant list them all out. some i still haf to keep it to myself, nt meant for sharin. jux imagine hw exhausted my brain can b jux figurin all these unknown number of whys.

tts all for nw ba. shall update again soon. shall carry on with my drama. ((:

2011-03-10T20:45:00.002+08:00

bck updatin.
another week is pastin again! ))):
i've been wastin my tym this wk again.
somehow i find tt this wk really went on faster.
mayb went for de class chalet tts why.
wad can i say.
i'll described it as, its still a gd job afterall, even though it wasnt well planned right fr de start.
as usual, didnt managed to get a wink throughout de whole night.
until 9 in de mornin laid down on de mattress tgt with sis.
4 ppl sharin on 2 mattress.
wh, cheng, me and sj.
tsktsk. bt still funny uh.
managed to rest for an hr or two.
den i'm afresh, started laughin loud with sis.
de funny part is when she suddenly put her hand on my waist, den i cant stand de itch jux give her a light punch. LOL!
afterwhich, lini joined in de fun, she hugged de 2 of us tgt.
which means sis was in de middle. LOL. still put her leg over us.
*clapclap*
den sj was jux slppin nxt to me. we were laughin loud, and i didnt knw his eyes were openin wide lookin at me until i turned at de other position. scare me!
returned home tt day. reached home ard 11 plus?
washed up and yupyup. my mood kind of ruined. wad shld i say?
pissed off? irritated?
or is it due to de lack of sleep i had which triggered everything?
still. i wun voice out anything here.
everything will b erased and nt stored.
wastin my space only.
bt its kind of better le.
so yup. nth much to update alrdy also.
shall update again soon. ((:

2011-03-08T15:46:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps!
It's gonna b another update!((:
Currently at CSR with my own class of Ppl.
Although it's kind of a sudden, Bt I guess everything went on pretty alright at de end of de day.
Currently slackin on de bed, majority are slppin.
Despite Nt gettin into any form of slp, I'm still unwillin to grab any form of rest.
Hw come? Perhaps with lens still in de eye, which is alrdy more den 24 hrs, without pillows, bolsters with me, I can't really slp.
Laid down only 9 plus in de mornin, and rested till 10 plus.
And of cos, something stupid tt we did also uh.
Hahahhahaa. Sis put her hand over me all of de sudden, and it triggered my itch, thus, I rewarded her with a light punch. LOL!
lini had tried to hug Sis and me all at a tym, and damn funny also uh.
With 4 Ppl on 2 mattress.
Lini, Sis, me and ShengJie.
ShengJie tried to b funny with me by openin his eyes real big starrin at me whenever de noise lvl went too high.
At first really shocked me! Bt after some stregthin, I managed to got up and go to de washroom.
Went for a slight walk alone. And saw 四脚蛇, actually wanted to snap it usin my phone, Bt it reacts faster den me!))):
It ran away before I can snap it! Tsktsk!

Shall head home after de event tonite and haf a gd gd slp!
I missed my bed, pillow, bolster so much! ))):

2011-03-05T11:28:00.002+08:00

another post of the week.
hw time really flies. its really just a blink of an eye.
its been a wk after fyp.
spent my tym out of de hse, within de hse.
applyin jobs.
went for uob interview.
bt still, its better to apply more jobs jux in case ba.
mood wasnt really tt great on tt interview itself.
tt type of feelin, nth could b referred to.
its been long, ever since i had tt kind of feelin.
breakin down, tears wanted to roll down so much tt mornin, yet i cant.
constantly remindin myself, i'm all dressed up, if i were to let my tears flow, it will b smudge and i'll b a clown.
my smile was worst den cryin.
i tot puttin myself to bed would make me better.
bt it doesnt seem to b.
couldnt really fall into deep slp.
went gym in de evenin, had some small chat with cousin.
den slightly better.
wad i can say was tt day, de tym was really crawlin.
nth could jux brin bck my mood.
tt nite, a couple of ppl came to talk to me.
all appreciated alright.((:
only slept at 4 plus tt nite.
chat over de phone with sis. and i believe she knws mostly wad i'm thinkin.
bt still, i didnt told her a-z.
cos i'm still thinkin, wad made me to haf this conclusion? do i really wan it? if so, why am i sufferin so much? am i foolish to haf tt decision in mind? and many many more. it seems to b endless.
i cant stop thinkin. dere are jux simply so much qn in my mind, all without any solutions. i wanted de solutions, yet i cant figure it out. shld i b mad at myself?

2011-03-01T20:57:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.
its another update.
actually also nth to update abt.
had spent my past few days applyin job non stop.
although de amount of job tt i applied wasn't tt much.
bt. at de very least, i've managed to get a response bck uh.
spent my day out.
and i believed it was a fruitful one.
ok. i've lose de mood on wadever i wanted to post for today.
shall update again soon.

2011-02-26T17:18:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.
once again i'm bck. updatin.
hw times flies.
its jux a blink of eyes.
i'm done off with fyp, and ytd was my last day in nyp.
otw to sch ytd. i dunno why. i gt this feelin.
those 依依不舍的感觉 rose up.
suddenly all those memories. all those funny, crazy, stress, disturbin moments.
all those ups and downs.
felt tt they are so important. the things that are accumulated over the 3 yrs.
nv felt so precious before.
while thinkin bck, 3 yrs really flew past.
everyone grew up, and had learned hw to overcome the obstacles throughout the whole 3 yrs tgt.
it was a really fruitful tym spent.
alhough dere are still some unhappiness in it, bt i believe dere are more happiness in there.
ok enough of that.
my fyp managed to got it workin on one of the application at the very last min.
which was a really gd sign!
final presentation went on well too. nt much of sarcastic remarks.((:
slacked for de last 2 days.
spent only a few hrs in sch and off i went. LOL!
nw tt sch is over, its time for me to start job huntin.
send out a couple of application forms today.
hopefully dere will b some news soon.
of cos, there are still somethings tt i nid to settle.
those ppl ard me thru out these few mths shld knw wad ba.
i'm nt gonna voice out anything here.
bt i wan to settle de matter asap uh.
bt i dun haf any courage to do so. ))): 0.0
bt still. i think i'll resolve it ba.
tts all i wan to update for nw.
update again soon!

2011-02-12T21:26:00.006+08:00

hey peeps.
once again, i'm bck.
its been more den a wk eversince i updated.
its my apology.
hw was all your cny holiday?
mine was perfectly normal.
de same routine as every yr.

first day, everybody will arrive at my hse, had steamboat, chatted alittle with some of them, played with baby wendy. almost had conflict, bt everything were non of my business. its nth to link with me.
second day, actually my bro wanted us to go for breakfast de, jux lyk last yr, only de kids go and haf breakfast tgt. in de end tt pig overslept. still blame us sayin nv wake him up. well, tt day was my turn to go hse visitin. my sis and i seriously is took a super long tym to dress up, due to the fake eye lashes. no choice landin up de 2 of us helpin with each other. first stop, went over to my grandma's place. and the funny part was my grandma cant recognize me! mayb puttin on fake lashes ba? LOL. spent quite sometime dere, enjoyed to the max. played with baby jordan as well. after tt went to my dad's aunt and siblings hse. over at my dad's aunt's place, ah sheng shushu de laopo, which is also baby wendy's mummy, gave me an additional gift also. ((: had dinner dere too. and my cousin was so cute by disturbin me with my phone, sayin my phone is noisy. so coincident tt emopiggybearbear is ard that area too. my last stop was at clementi. which is also the stop i hear their old old story. seems interestin, bt i'm real tired!
third day, went over to my second aunt's place. afterwhich, sis and me trained downto woodlands and shopped all ard. it was my first tym wearin a freakin real high heels to go shoppin. and its a real killin. bt still i didnt change out of it.(: bought another dress fr purpur. bt sis paid! LOL. tts de best part whenever you gt somebody who is elder den you to go shoppin with. it will definitely endin up the elder one payin. LOL! called mum otw hm, and mum asked me whether did i buy any shorts or pants, i replied her sayin i bought a dress. den she reply me sayin ask you to buy shorts or pants you buy dress. tsktsktsk! tts hw complicated parents are! when i dun wear dress or skirt dey will ask me why. when i buy and wanted to wear, they will ask me why nv buy shorts or pant. mum also asked whether are we goin to dajiu's hse for dinner. den i say ok! why nt! its a better chance to get closer, sis agreed too. and i bet this is de happiest day i had. i enjoyed every single bit. bt erjiu nt ard, if nt really is reunion! nvm! i'll definitely make it a reunion on my birthday! took quite a few pics. all on fb posted by my biaojie! its something great to b reminise for.
fourth day, went to help my dad with his work le! some of his friends came and wished me too! of cos, i wished bck too! ((:

yupyup. so tts all for my new yr.
and hw tym flies. jux a blink of my eyes.
fyp comin to an end soon.
which means i'm really graduatin soon!
bt my proj still cant get it workin, which is really gettin onto my nerves.
angry!
meetin chanel and dexter tmr. hopefully it will work!
i wish, i bless, i hope!

graduatin seems gd. bt its kind of unwillin too.
i cant bear to depart all those memories i had within these 3 yrs.
all those b it unhappiness, arguements, happiness, disagreements, encouragements, fun, proj, test, exams, stress, de ppl i met.
although studies really is tough, we had overcome it tgt.
i dare to admit the fact tt those tears wasn't wasted afterall.
over these 3 yrs of education, i can sense tt i've really grow alot.
i'm glad tt i had an awesome class. i had an awesome grp of fyp mates.
they are jux so awesome tt i can blend in so well with them.
de fear, de things that i worried for was gone.
i jux cant bear for somethings.

lyk some were goin to pursue their studies overseas after graduation or a few yrs lata.
hw i wish dey will stay. i knw its kind of lyk a little kid throwin temper. and i dun stand much for changin their minds. bt i seriously hope tt dey will really give a thought abt it ba. ((:
de laughter, de fun we had accumulated.
yupyup. hey peeps. dun start tearin when your read this short little post uh!

2011-02-03T23:38:00.004+08:00

well. its another update.
first and foremost, let me wish your happy cny!
in another few mins, and we shall bid gd bye to the first day of cny.
there wasnt any special.
same as de past few yrs.
i'm stuck at hm waitin for the arrival of the guest.
did some installation of application while waitin.
today woke up late.
and once again. my late uncle's wife came to my rm and woke me up.
followed by my biao jie fu.
with my niece comin into my rm and wishin me happy new yr.
i was lyk. uh ok!
and de guest came one by one.
had my steamboat session. ((:
fishball! wahahahaa!
played games, watch drama, chattin on msn, do installation, chattin with some of them, playin with baby wendy, went for de first hse visitin in de evenin. my late uncle's hse.
stayed dere for awhile and left.
i enjoyed chattin with ah sheng shushu and his wife.
nice chattin session! ((:
dere were too many ppl dere. kind of irritatin.
cos de ppl went over fr my hse over to their hse. tts why.
LOL.
deres one pimple poppin out on my face.
yet no matter hw i force to squeeze it jux couldnt get out. -.-
angry! serious. its ugly!
i must cover tmr for sure!
erm. first tym goin to try on fake eye lashes.
wahahaa. nt my idea, bt my sis. hahahaha.
i foresee. will take super long tym to dress up tmr!
cos i nv use tt before. LOL!
dun think i'll continue my proj at this hr.
shall continue tmr if i were to return hm early.
i nid to think wad shld i wear for tmr!
goin to my grandma hse tmr. *happy*!
i lyk! gt baby jordan! LOL. shall play tmr!
before hse visitin, my bro decided to haf some breakfast.
yupyup. jux lyk last yr. hahaha!
enjoy your day tmr too, peeps!
i think tts all for nw ba.
shall update again soon!

2011-01-31T15:16:00.003+08:00

a brand new wk.
a brand new post.
its gonna b a short short wk for this wk.
this wk actually is de cny wk.
hwever, i still dun get any atmosphere in me.
its gettin so bad each day.
as bad as nt gettin worried of nt gettin enough clothings, no heels, nt enough accessories. so on and so for.
i dunno wad de hell is goin so wrong with me.
my day wasnt tt great either.
i'm so unwillin to wake up to get to sch.
slack on de bed till 715 or later.
even sis also called out and told me to quickly wake up and prepare to sch.
as it is rainin, askin me to go out early.
normally i'll b rushin lyk mad.
bt nt for today.
due to de weather?
nah. cant b. cos its nt de first day it rained at de timin.
i'm jux simply unhappy.
bt i'm nt sure wad i'm unhappy of.
deliberately nt to carry any form of umbrella with me.
walked in de rain.
its been quite sometime i lasted did tt.
bt its nt gettin any better.
in fact it ruined my day much further.
i jux cant b bothered to do some stuff.
lunch break also deliberately walk in de rain.
i alrdy dun care wads my image.
yes tts hw bad my day was.
no matter hw much i dun feel lyk talkin, smilin.
i still forced myself to do so.
i dun wan any care and concern.
neither do i wan to confide to anybody.
i jux wan to b alone.
jux let me b.
i'm so sick of everything.

2011-01-26T21:24:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.
once again.
i'm bck!
missed me?
hahahhaa!
anyway. hw tym flies.
exactly a wk fr nw, it will b cny.
bt i still dun get any mood lehh.
jialat.
ytd was quite alright i guess.
only kind of still affected by mon.
although it still does alittle.
wad a wk!
anyway. de colour i did. dun look lyk violet purple.
more towards to brown. *faint*))):
today. had to pull myself out of bed.
and i didnt notice tt it was de symptom of havin a bad headache.
really for once. slept in de lab, no matter hw uncomfortable it is.
i think lasted for at least 15 mins?
and sat in front of my com doin cmd.
angry. desktop can work perfectly alright.
bt nt when i drag into tomcat or even if its i do inside de tomcat itself also cant work.
i can build it succcessfully, bt it cant b displayed in de browser. ))):
i wan my supervisor to come down tmr!!!
even lini stood right in front of me i also didnt notice.
de more i do de more blur i get, and my head was really crackin at tt point in tym.
really is stare lookin at de cmd run.
de weather is weird today too.
it rained heavily in sch. and stopped for awhile ard 2 and i decided to walk on de 2nd floor.
i stepped out of de buildin, walked a few steps, it started pourin again.
no choice walk bck again.
otw hm nt rainin, i jux stood on de train with my eyes close.
leaned against de side of de wall.
den reached cck no rain still.
transferred over to lrt it started pourin again.
i stepped out of de station. it stopped.
till de point whereby i reached ard my block it started to rain again.
weird isnt it.
reached hm, got changed. fall onto de bed straight.
phone ringed when i almost fall into deep slp.
no voice alrdy and i can still scream over de wall to reply my bro.
steady lehh.
finally slept at 4 plus. and i jux woke up at 8 plus.
shall slp again soon. ((:
rest early too, peeps!

2011-01-24T19:56:00.003+08:00

i've been postin bck on track.
which is a gd sign.
today is mon.
wad a horrible mon blue i had.
perhaps. knwin some stuff makes makes my day blue-er.
i wun voice out anything here.
dun bother to ask. cos i wun mention a word out of it.
i think it will lead up to nxt wk.
hopefully. it will b a gd news ba.
hopefully. i guess.
only touched proj awhile for today.
emo-ed almost half of de day.
wth. its been long eversince i last did tt.
tears almost fall off fr de corner of my eyes.
wads so wrong with me?
i dunno.
perhaps partly nt gettin de proj to work as expected?
currently changin my colour of my hair.
dunno wad de outcome will b.
hopefully. something nice.
dearest cousin headin towards my hse too.
shall update again soon.

2011-01-23T18:52:00.002+08:00

Another post of de day.
Currently with daddy((:
Hw tym flies. In less den 2 wks it will b cny!
Ytd headed down to town and bugis with dearest cousin.
Grabbed a few dress.
Tts de easiest to dress up when you are really clueless on wad to buy.
Yupyup. So this yr I'll b wearin dress. Depends on my mood first.
Hahahhaa!
So Nw I'm left with my shoes. Which is most probably heels.
Plus grab some bottom Jux in case.

我并不知道从几时开始，我会开始在乎。
可是我知道一切都是不可能会发生的。
我只能默默的忍受所有的一切。

2011-01-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

well well. its gonna b another update.
yup. tym check. 12:58AM.
i cant get to slp.
i had no idea why too.
de wk had went on to b considered as quite smoothly.
bt i dunno why.
wasnt really tt happy afterall.
sometyms i really think hw unfair this world can b.
i understand de fact tt somethings cant b pressed.
somethings are nt under our control.
bt de amount of frustration was unbearable.
yet everything still haf to fit into de place.
else everything will simply goes crazy.

anyway. i ended my wk with a shoppin spree at town.
trained down with bearbear and boonhan.
waited for my cousin to appear.
shopped ard and gotten 4 bottles of nail polish bck.
as for sat. woke up and did some sprin cleanin still.
and off went for second part of shoppin spree.
also marks my reunion dinner tgt with my late uncle's side family.
at least i still managed to get some clothes for cny today.
this yr was rather simple i guess.
perhaps i dun even haf de mood ba.
tts why.
shall update again soon.

2011-01-17T20:29:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.
its been a wk or so tt i've stepped in here.
cny comin along de way too!
bt i've yet to do all sorts of shoppin and maintenance.
schedule had been so freakin hectic. -.-
sch had been rather fine.
had lots of laughter in sch.
proj wise. i can only shake head uh.
last wk was mid term presentation.
kind of gt shoot.
cos our software installation wasnt even done properly.
bt tts definitely nt our fault right.
blame it on de in charge lo.
passin it to us so late.
jam here and dere.
nw. still stuck. f!
i nid help.
do you ppl knw hw to configure PTA into apache tomcat server?
it keep on promptin me proxy refusing connection error.
if i didnt rmb wrongly.
anyway. bearbear had been helpin me alot these few days!
so. ty uh! LOL. ((:
its been so amazin hw well we could even play tgt.
i think tts all for nw?
shall update again soon.

2011-01-09T19:52:00.003+08:00

Hello Peeps! Once again I'm bck!
My apology for settin my blog as private previously of no reason.
This wk had been rather ok for me.
Managed to haf some progress on my proj.
With the help of my grp mates, wh and of cos qf de Bearbear. ((:
Dey had helped me alot along de way. Especially when I'm unable to launch de outcome.
Thanks alot! (((:
Bt I'm stuck again! -.-
quite alot to do Tmr! I wan my supervisor to come down Tmr! I nid his help!
Bt I find myself really fortunate to haf nice nice Ppl ard me to help me along de way.

这次我真的放开了!
这段期间不知不觉的让我发觉到我的生命里谁是过客谁才是真正对我好的人。
真正对我好的有许多，他们都一直陪在我的左右。在我多么的不开心，他们就算有多忙，总是会在我的身旁逗我开心。
就算我不说话也没关系，他们也会坐在我身旁陪我。
就算多晚了，她有多累，只要我传个短信，她也会回应我。
是他们让我发现这世界的人还没太烂。
而当我想回的过去，我也不知道应该怎么形容.
原本应该有的好影象也已经慢慢的消失。
就像我所说的，你不需要多说，我总有一天也会知道你的所做所为。
当我想回所有你说过的话，现在并没有任何意义，反而更多问号。
让我想当时你是用什么心情来说出那些话。
现在让我真的看清所有的一切。

Yup. Tts all I wan to say.
I'll wash my hand off everything fr Nw on.

2011-01-05T12:42:00.001+08:00

hey peeps.
i'm bck.
its kind of late, bt i still wish you guys a happy new yr!
this few days had been pretty fine.
although i had discovered something tt i really think tt i shldnt knw.
although everything had been ended by placin a fullstop.
bt it still trigger some anger in me.
lyk wad i had mentioned. dun treat an IT student as an idiot.
its only de option is mine, whether to do it anot.
i dun do the things tt ppl told me to do.
as i think tt dere is a nid to respect as tts your personal privacy.
bt if i were really do it, den it only shows one thing.
you've jux lose all my trust tt i've had in you.
yup.
and it had made me grow alot.
i've also came up with a conclusion.
which is also part of me.
'i dun do explaination when necessary. because i believed wad falls before me is always true. i dun use ears to listen. bt my eyes to see and my heart to feel. so dun waste your breathe on me by explainin. there is a phrase in chinese, 'jie shi jiu shi yan shi.' i dunno. bt i feel tt if you were tryin to cover up the previous mistake that you had made, you will come up with more lies jux to cover up de current situation. in the end you will nv realise tt hw much lies you haf used jux to solve every single thing. it will haf no endin for sure. by de tym when you haf decided to b truthful for once, it will b hard. as you haf alrdy completely lose the trust in others.'
i'm perfectly alright so no worries.
i'm jux tryin to share some of my thoughts.
yupyup. ytd. somebody recommended me a song.
and hw coincident tt, tt happened to b de song.
dunno why. kind of weird feelin came up.
bt nvm. i guess de more i listen to, de more natural i'll face it.
so its ok.
yup. i'm gettin more and more optimistic.
which is a gd sign. ((:
nxt wk will mark de mid term presentation.
hopefully everything will b fine.
hopefully i wun stumble durin de presentation.
i dun wan de history to repeat itself again.
i nid plenty of luck!
i wan all those courages bck while doin emcee.

2010-12-31T11:32:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!
its fri!
a different fri too!
today is de day tt marks de last day of 2010.
in a few hrs tym we will b movin on to a brand new yr.
a new yr. it will nv ever short of new resolution.

my resolution for de brand new yr 2011 are:

1. everybody ard me to stay happy and healthy.
2. everything will b smooth enough for me and to those ppl ard me.
3. perhaps flyin over to other country?
4. gettin a proper job after my fyp.
5. i wanna learn piano, pickin up dance skills.
6. perhaps futherin my studies in uni, on bankin and finance. bt its nt goin to b directly. perhaps 1-2 years down de road?
7. buildin up my confidence lvl.
8. bein realistic. no more little girl's thinkin.

well. this yr i shall leave out gettin another half as my new yr resolution ba. yup. cos i jux realised. dere are so much things tt i wan to fulfill. dere are so much things tt i wan to do. afterall, this type of things is nt you wan you will get. it depends on fate. agree? since dere is no way for me to stop steppin into the adulthood life, why nt i jux move one? these few days had made me grow. made my mind clearer on wad i wan to achieve in life. wad shld come first wad shld come later. clearly stated. nobody is goin to stop me. i'm goin to move towards my goal. i'm nt goin to stay in my lala land anymore. i wan something tt is more realistic. i nid to start facin de society. de reality of this society. something tt is cruel.

2010-12-28T07:45:00.003+08:00

It's Tues.
Well actually I also dunno wad to post.
Ytd was de day tt I marked a fullstop to everything.
And and and. I knw I've hurt him badly.
I knw it's lyk super fast, super random.
It wasn't his fault bt mine.
Serious.
I didn't knw wad I wanted to achieve fr life.
I dun wan to b a bug flyin in no directions.
It's kind of miserable isn't it.
I dun wan to hurt him in any ways.
I dun wan to give any empty hopes, empty promises, empty commitments into this relationship.
It will b miserable and unfair to him.
I dun wan the relationship to b left with nth bt a part of my routine where it is compulsory for me to do this and that for de sake of Doin.
I dun wan to quarrel over something minor.
It will b really bad and pathetic if it reaches tt point.
I knw I'm inconsiderate to make all these decision by myself.
Bt I really dun wan to make things difficult.
Jux lyk wad him and majority always mention.
Dere bound to b sweetness and bitterness in an ongoin relationship.
I understand tt. I also knw tt escapin wasn't de best solution.
However, I dun wan to leave any bad memories in this relationship.
At least when he think bck it's something tt is happy rather den angry or sad.

I knw you will b readin.
I really hope you will take gd care of yourself. Get ample of slp. Take your meals regularly.
Rest well.
dont ask me whether does it still matter.
cos it does. nobody is willin to see you torturin yourself.

2010-12-24T09:55:00.003+08:00

2010-12-24T09:55:00.002+08:00

its fri!
today is nt a normal fri.
its de eve of christmas!
how are you ppl goin to celebrate?
ppl havin off days.
i'm stuck in de lab for half day.
bt nvm! better den nth. ((:
no mood for proj today.
shall waste my tym away.
everybody are on holiday mood alrdy.
goin bck hm and do some spring cleanin
i'm so goin to dump alot of things today!
after tt i shall make sure i haf enough space for new shoppin spree soon!
hahaha.
although gotten some, bt i think dere are plenty to do still.
hahahah!
i feel lyk gettin log cake bck hm.
bt sis bought mango and cookie moose cake hm ytd.
so i buy bck hm confirm get scoldin de. hahahaha!
goin 1030. yes! 2 more hrs to go! ((:
this few days i also dunno why.
lazy to get out of my bed.
in de lab still miss my bed so much.
somehow i felt this yr really flew past real fast.
in merely a few more days.
2010 is goin to b over, and here comes 2011.
and in a few more mths i'm really steppin into young adulthood.
can de tym at least past slower?
i dun lyk things to zoom tt fast.
it doesnt feel to b tt realistic.
bt kind of lyk a dream.
i always felt tt i'm still a little girl.
de one tt is trouble free.
ppl spoon feedin me.
nw i haf to stand by myself.
walkin in my direction on my own.
no more ppl spoon feedin.
no words for description.
its kind of lyk.
when you are young, you are able to sulken alittle and ppl will gif in to you.
however, at this age, if you still actin this way, den ppl will really stare at you.
and think wth you are really thinkin
worst still. ppl will think tt you are nth bt nuts.

sometimes i really think whether is it de pressure, de history, or worst still am i weak? wadever it is tt leads to wad am i today. it seems lyk as though i'm casted in a shadow.

2010-12-23T08:30:00.002+08:00

its thurs.
and yet i'm feelin so down.
seriously is wtf.
mood swing? unhappiness?
i also dunno.
can i jux escape fr everything?
i yearned for was a peaceful life.

2010-12-22T17:25:00.008+08:00

bck updatin after a wk.
2 more days to christmas eve.
3 more days to christmas.
9 more days to last day of 2010.
10 more days to the arrival of 2011.
hw tym flies.
i'm startin to age soon. )):
new year, definitely wun miss out my new resolution for the brand cnew yr tt is still thinkin on my mind.
shall list them out soon ba.
currently in my fyp lab. alone.
majority went for napfa trainin.
went for awhile. sittin in the drizzle while watchin the guys playin soccer.
didnt run any today.
perhaps nxt wk shall join in de fun with them.
hahaha.
wad a humid weather. sittin in de drizzle, and i can alrdy feel stickyness on my body.
decided to return bck to lab.
my lab mate asked me straight, did you went for a run?
i was lyk no? she said i was lyk sweatin.
which i agree. sticky sticky. eww.
this wk was quite alright i guess.
finally managed to get the webgoat and tomcat goin.
hopefully everything will b as smooth as possible for the nxt 9 wks or so.
wasnt really in de mood for de past few days.
was emo-in, quite moody for de last few days ba.
i also dunno why.
with the laughter in de lab i'm much much better.
especially lini mummy, chanel, sis, wh, bearbear.
appreciated to all those sense tt your talked into me.
standin with me all these while.
and those care and concern((:
ytd left de lab early. as early as 2.30pm?
hahaha. surprisin isnt it.
majority are. hahahah!

i dunno why. dun try to touch me. regardless who you are to me.
and hw great! my com gotten screen shot! F!

2010-12-15T19:14:00.003+08:00

bck postin.
today is wed!
and its lyk finally i sat down and read de pdf.
great great improvement.
mon skipped fyp, went appointment wif mum.
i've yet to make up my mind on whether shld i go for tt mini surgery.
seems complicated to me. bt its nt compulsory to do.
de decision lies on me.
even if i wan. also wun b nw ba. after fyp.
too tym consumin.
its nt a day tt can solve everything.
after de surgery, i've gt to return bck constantly for 6 mths for a jab.
i dunno whether can i endure de torture within this 6 mths.
i'm really afraid of pain. )):
and somemore de doc cant confirm whether it will grow bck again anot. )):
most of them encouraged me nt to go.
i also dunno.
i enjoyed tues alot.
had lots of fun and laughter in de lab.
today. wed.
ok also. ((:
went walk walk wif sis while fyp.
today heard 2 mad ppl encounter story.
one of them happened on bearbear while de other happened right in front of sis and me.
left early today.
yup. dun say alrdy. day kind of spoilt.

2010-12-12T00:45:00.004+08:00

here is de first post after i've changed de skin.
i've decided to remove quite alot of things.
no more chatbox, no more introduction. no more fancy fonts.
as simple as it can be, was my main purpose.
i guess most of your are alrdy in your lala land alrdy.
its gettin late. i also wan to enter my lala land soon.
well. actually also nth much to update too.
wad i can say was. i met really a bunch of very nice ppl in fyp.
lots of laughter everyday. so no worries ya!
i think i'll enjoy thru out de 12 wks!
wun b attendin to sch on mon.
really kind of worry, afraid.
those undescript-able feelin goin on in me.
goin over tgt with mum.
proj wise. so far still ok ba.
no programmin.
which is relatively a gd sign. ((:
hopefully everything will b fine.
chat wif bearbear jux nw.
kind of understand wad he is feelin.
thought bck while chattin
and felt tt hw foolish i can b previously.
gettin hurt so deeply for nth.
i'll forever rmb deep in me.
ha! may karma fall on you.
erm. anyway. bearbear! dun worry b happy!
with ur xiaomei and me ard no worries! LOL.
fri after sch went over to baby's hse, helped him with his duty rooster.
only managed to complete 1. bt nvm. nw at least dere is a big big progress.
erm. wad i can say is. baby. dun b too stressed up ba.
step by step. prove tt you can do it. ((:

2010-12-06T16:15:00.003+08:00

its a brand new wk.
so i'm here, bloggin.
last wk was pretty fine.
was the last wk of ipp.
and today marks de first day of my fyp.
its damn borin can!
bored till de pt whereby i surf fb surf till dun wan to surf.
searched for pic to display it on de wall.
and nw bloggin.
LOL.
i have yet to meet my proj supervisor.
-.-
met another supervisor instead.
wad gd news was, instead of pair work, dere was another member.
bt he is nt ard today.
will b workin closely with another grp as well.
hopefully everything will go on smoothly within this 3 mths.
luckily my lab majority came fr lyk previous class, ipp.
if nt can really bang on de wall alrdy.
my partner was still alright.
a malay guy. quite friendly. joker i guess.
although sittin at de lab near de corridor, although it is lyk a fish tank,
i dun mind alrdy.
ppl can come drop by and visit me, or even hi and bye.
as long as dey cant see my screen can le.
hahahaha.
this comin wed dere is a small workshop with an hr duration.
and i'm involved tgt with my partner.
hopefully. everything will b fine.

2010-12-03T16:32:00.003+08:00

another postin.
kind of bored. slackin in de office.
did my last stack of cards for data entry.
de total record in de database finally hit 20k.
and told nigel tt i dun wan to do anymore.
today also marks the end of my ipp. which it went off quite fast.
yupyup.
LO came down visitin in de mornin. which kind of scare me alittle.
was on de phone outside of de office and yet i hardly could recognise her.
she cant recognise me too. wad a joke.
tellin me tt she is here to meet peiyi and glenn.
yupyup. kind of funny. cant blame either. i cant recognise her too.
hahhaa.
its rainin! almost rainin everyday!
had a chat with her. updatin the things that we did for de past 12 wks.
glenn had half day off. thus only me and her in de conference rm.
had spent de past few days wanderin tgt with her.
gettin something rather important for de upcomin sat, which is tmr!
bt sad to say tt our mission failed ytd.
within one wk. tts wad we promised.
nxt wk is goin to b de first wk of fyp.
and i'm alrdy so dead when i heard abt de title of de proj.
'opensource' say gd luck to me!
wads worst. its a pair work instead of a grp.
without me knowin who my partner will b.
de gender, de appearance, de attitude.
seriously is gd luck man!
*clapclap*
nxt fri. will nt b attendin sch ba.
haf to head down to nuh.
yupyup. perhaps tgt with my mum.
kind of afraid.
undescriptable fear in me.

whee. de giant baby had half day.
bt nt meetin him. wahahhaa.
let him have ample of rest. shall meet him tmr
tgt with de rest!

well. i think for the tym being, dere wun b any night life.
dad wasnt really pleased with me this few days.
nid to reach hm as early as possible.
yup. before he really starts havin curfew on me!
by den i'll really have no eyes to see!

will b meetin up with sis lata after work.
to do tt surprising thing.
hopefully i wun fall aslp man.
wun b stayin at her hse also.
must b a gd girl for de tym bein.
whahahaha.

shall end off le.
update soon!

2010-12-01T10:21:00.002+08:00

Whee peeps. I'm bck.
Today is wed. Bt I didn't report to work.
Took off despite this wk is de last.
Everything had been rather fine for me.
Bt ytd jux some unhappiness tt had hit me.
Rainin heavily. And I chose to walk in de rain.
Walkin in dere may make me Hw shag I am. Bt I dun mind.
Allowed my mind went wild. Had deep thinking too.
Wadever it is. I haven gotten any solutions.
Currently in polyclinic. Mornin with grandma weekly appointment
And Nw my turn. After so long. Perhaps I've finally picked up the courage.
Bt I kind of regret to do so Nw. It's freaking slow!
Tts de main reason I dun lyk to visit polyclinics.
Seriously is waste tym only.
Damn it.

2010-11-27T09:21:00.002+08:00

Its sat!
Im otw to work.
And yup I think I'm so Goin to b late for work this tym round.
It's really late this tym.
Today also marks de first day of baby's work.
Hopefully everything will b movin on smoothly for him den.((:
And yup. After work gt to get bck hm stick my bum to de chair and complete my report.
Hw tym flies.
3mths and it's soon Goin to b over.

I'm beginning to realise de importance of him in me.
Start missin him every Nw and den.

2010-11-25T07:48:00.002+08:00

A quick update.
I knw it's early in de mornin.
I'm alrdy otw to work.
-.-
Getting out of bed later each day.
Seriously is bravo.
Wonderin will I b late for work one day.
Somebody was sick ytd. -.-
Get well soon den!
Was real tired ytd. It's been so long. I collapse straight after I hit my bed.
Indescribable. Till de pt where I'm hungry and I'm so lazy to find food.
Had fruit juice instead.
Ytd tt one was omg can. I was supposed to lead de newbies and in de end it became de other way rd.
Wad dey say I was lyk ok.
Nt tt exaggerated bt wad I can say was tt ytd wasn't really myself.
Kind of irritated bt nvm. Endured and was over.
For de first tym I think I'm lucky to get separated at different location with my cousin. If nt I think I'll b totally turned off man.

Sometimes I wonder. When will I overcome all de obstacles in my life. I knw with all those obstacle ard. It will cause me nth bt trouble. Am I stubborn I also dunno. Nt to mention during presentations. Even nw. Happens in communications. Well. Mayb useless ba. Even such small obstacle I took such a long tym and had yet to dissolve. Mayb tts also one big reason why my family is worried abt me. Keepin things to myself and nt speaking it out loud. Yes. I knw it's kind of foolish. Nobody will understand it. Those things tt you wish to speak up and yet haf any courage to do so. I knw ppl will b irritated. Bt it's more for me to struggle. I wan to break off this obstacle can I?

2010-11-23T22:08:00.003+08:00

another postin.
i think its gonna kind of lengthy for this post.
for those who haf been revolvin ard me for de past few days.
must haf been feelin something really went wrong am i right.
hahaha.
bt den dunno wad really went wrong am i right. LOL.
dun worry. its nth bad. so chill alright. hahhahaa.
i'm no longer in de history.
the main purpose of this post. was to clear all your doubts alright.
yup. perhaps some of them had guessed correctly.

i've found an important person to b part of my life.

shocked? surprised?
i knw wads goin thru in all your brains.
i shall describe it in details.
everything started on 18 nov.
when somebody asked me to go somewhere with her.
settled down at a location just the 2 of us.
a few moments lata. dere was a small small grp of ppl approachin us.
if i did rmb clearly.
and tt strike off our first conversation.
although quite blur at de beginnin. bt managed to catch up wads goin on.
did some intro of cos.
chatted awhile and hit de floor.
first impression.
nt tt bad. friendly. nice personality.
and of cos. we carried on, stayed in contact afterwhich.

i've agreed to stay with him, and be part of my life on 20 nov.
i knw its real fast.
i also felt tt way too.
bt.
yup. i chose to believe him.
lettin him to invade into my life.
i believe. its gonna b well maintained. ((:

2010-11-21T11:29:00.003+08:00

well. bck updatin.
suddenly doesnt have any urge to change de blogskin alrdy.
will change soon when i've decided to.
well. last wk was pretty fine.
worked 3 days.
with one self declared off day.
hahahaha.
gt kind of pissed off with a sentence tt came out fr somebody's mouth.
damn!
bt cant post here also. >tts de bad point of havin ipp period. even a slight grumble.
you are also nt allowed to post anywhere online.
2 more wks. my ipp would have to an end.
and i'll start to returnin bck to sch.
went club.
hahhaha.
interestin part starts right here.
bt wun mention too much here too.
erm. this wk i think de amount i went is abit overboard.
leadin me slppin less than 5 hrs a day.
god man!
mum also nt really happy with me gettin hm early in de mornin.
shall head lesser for de tym being.
and b a gd girl fr nw on.

2010-11-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

hey peeps.
its another post of de wk.
its tues.
this wk is goin to b shorten again.
wed is another public holiday.
which is great. hahaha.
current feelin in me was quite contradict.
part of attachment?
its de last 3 wks.
shld i feel happy?
i kind of look forward in returnin bck to sch.
at least its my familiarize ground.
at least dere are ppl whom i knw to b wif.
bt i think i'll miss all de laughter in de office with them too.
although de work tt i'm assigned to bored me quite abit.
although i'm quite pissed by one of them
although i didnt communicate with one of de director dere at all
although i grumbled for quite sometime.
although i'm always sittin alone at a corner.
i think i'll still miss de tym.
every hr, every min, every sec.
every fear, every laughter, every happiness, every try on workin their new system.
makes a part of me.
from silence become laughin and talkin.
their smiles, their jokes.
makes my day.
tym flies. even though every wk i say tt de tym is crawlin.
wk by wk past by.
this wk alrdy wk 10.
2 more wks. and it marks de end of my ipp.
i'll definitely miss them alot.
shall go bck and visit them when i'm free ba. ((:
think tts all ba.

2010-11-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

bck updatin.
this few days had been rather fine i guess.
last wk attended sis's er jie's 21st birthday.
its an awesome one.
and her family were great!
had great laughter with them.
went escape too.
took pirate ship which scare the hell out of me.
freakin high.
i knw de lvl tt i sat wasnt scary.
bt ppl. think if you almost slip off fr de seat.
yup. i almost slip off. really scare me.
and dere wasnt much chances for me to sit well, no choice bt to hold de pole tightly.
once and i beginnin to haf phobia on pirate ship.
no more pirate ship for me for de tym bein!
wad i enjoyed de most was de drivin part.
JOANNE CHENG WAS MY FIRST PASSENGER
AND HER ER JIE, SERENE CHENG WAS MY FIRST INSTRUCTOR!
damn damn fun and funny!
bt de rain came and spoilt our day. -.-
had great wkend last wk is all i can say.
hahahahah.
played with alot of little children.
as for work.
it had been rather fine.
happy to say tt i'm only left with 3 wks!
hahaha.
bt will miss some of them dere also.
de laughter.
hahaahahhaa.
i think shall update till here ba.
as for de pics part.
i'm still waitin for them to upload.
(((:
ciaos soon. (((:

2010-11-05T20:03:00.002+08:00

Bye oct hello nov
Hw tym really flies.
It's alrdy nov! Which means in another mth or so, I'll b returning bck to sch and those havin fyp nw will b vise versa.
Nth special really occurred
Bt I could feel tt I'm getting weaker as tym pass by.
Yup. Last wk I suffered fr eye conjectitives and this wk I'm contracted with a flu.
Which makes me dun dare to get mc.
Wad really is luckily is tt this wk was considered to b a short short wk.
So wasn't tt bad too.
Feelin so slppin.
Shall slp soon I think. Shall update again soon.
Ciaos peeps!((:

2010-10-27T21:37:00.002+08:00

tym for some updates.
since its been quite sometime eversince i last updated.
recently was quite unhappy abt some stuff.
bt i've gt to forbid myself fr grumblin here.
cos i cant mention it here.
bt talked to some of my dear ones.
gt much much better.
cheered up alot also.
recently my eyes also gt affected by de haze too.
red, painful and irritated.
recurred again last nite.
and gt mc for today.
appeared in sch today.
and everybody was rather surprised!
haha.
had a long long chat tgt with cheng!
think tts all for nw ba!
shall update again soon!

2010-10-16T20:21:00.002+08:00

hello peeps.
its sat!
bck postin. had left this blog dead for quite a short period of time.
nth special happened.
as usual reported to work everyday.
fri gt alittle messed up.
gt quite pissed off also.
in de end didnt meet up also.
bt everything is fine.
jux lyk most of your mentioned.
there will not be any disappointments when you doesn't have expectation from others.
tts wad i learn fr a couple of ppl on my fb.
had plenty of rest at hm today.
Ling came over my hse too. dl videos and watch.
ice cream session.
mon will b headin over to uncle's side after work.
so will b quite tirin on tues i guess.
shall slp more to cover back de time tt i'm goin to miss.
gtg for nw. ((:

2010-10-10T11:59:00.002+08:00

经过多晚的思考,我终于做了一个决定.
那就是, 放弃!
我真的累了.这次真的好累好累.
或许丛头到现在,都是我自己想得太过完美.
都是天真所惹得祸.
我几时才能够把自己所有的天真给丢了呢?

2010-10-09T20:12:00.002+08:00

hello peeps.
i'm bck postin.
its been long ever since i blogged.
work had been rather fine.
gettin along 'quite' well with some of my colleagues there.
life has been borin.
no life.
my every routine was to wake up at 6 plus, prepare, trained down to work, return hm and dere goes, one of my day.
today was my first alternate wk.
wad i can descript it was. dere were lyk though there are no government.
tts wad i told my mum.
and she was laughin.
was slackin in dere till 1 plus.
played along with one of my colleague's daughter.
and bejewled in fb. LOL.
adorable tts wad i say.
and her english was damn slant lo.
can say basically everybody are slackin!
LOL.
actually i also dunno hw to start this topic.
just tt.
i'm rather sad or hurt by some personal things this few days.
i might appear strong. when actually i'm nt.

其实我也不知道, 为什么会落到这种地步.
我的心里好乱好乱.
乱得无话可形容.
或许今天我才发现了一些事.
竟然能够影响到我.
为什么要吓我了以后,又叫我不要担心呢?
我真的很不明白.
如果我所看到的, 内容跟我没关系的话, 请别让我像个傻瓜, 在圈子里绕个不停.

2010-09-26T20:29:00.002+08:00

Whee. I'm bck.
Erm. This wk was considered to b quite alright ba. Haf been doin data entry for quite a few days. Which was quite bored actually. Bt I'm starting to blend into de company with some of my colleagues. Chatted abit with them and really had great laughter on fri with them. When one of my colleagues, mei yen asked we all to guess their ages. LOL. I can't stop laughing. I've also came across a comment left by one of them while doin data entry. Which made me laugh real hard, even tears also came fillin up my eyes. Yup. I knw it does sound alittle exaggerated. Even one of my director in his office was looking at me. De whole office was filled with my laughter. LOL! :x this comin tues, results will b out. And once again I'm worried sick of my results again. I really hope, wish and bless tt everything must b cleared. Even with a D I also wun mind. I nid plenty of lucks! Can some of your bear to lent me some of it? I'm so so worried. Till I dunno wad to say. Haiz.

2010-09-19T21:28:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps! I'm bck.
This few days had been real busy.
Currently on dad's bus, usin my phone to blog.
For those who are closed to me will
Knw tt I've started on my industrial placement project/ipp or wad it's commonly known to b attachment.
Well. I'm located ard Macpherson area. Which was really quite a distance away fr my hse. Basically de ppl dere were also shocked when they saw de address on my ic as well as application form.
Wad can I say is de ppl dere were quite gd ba. Dere are 3 bosses in de office and I'm sittin directly in front of one of de boss de clear window. Wad a nice position isn't it? Lol. Tts wad I think too. Can't do something stupid. It can b seen directly fr her window. Even though dey are gd, I dunno hw to click with them. So called only clicked with one of de lady dere. Bt she left for holiday alrdy. Hopefully she will b bck soon. Last fri had a small celebration, as it happened to b one of their birthday. Stayed for awhile and head hm tgt with sis. And luckily alternate was cancelled for this wk. I think I shall update till her for de tym bein ba. Shall grab some nap first. ((:

2010-09-10T14:45:00.003+08:00

well. jux lyk wad i've mentioned in the previous post.
i'll b bck after my exams. and here i am!
all i seriously hope was tt i'm able to pass and clear this sem jux lwk hw i did for de past few sems.
anyway. slept quite alot eversince i gt hm ytd.
lunched wif dearest cheng.
and hw amazin was tt we were both grumblin tt we were real hungry and yet we didnt finish up our food.
update with each other on quite a few stuff.
anyway. i've gotten my ipp location. which was really far.
and gt attached tgt with one of de programmin student.
dunno him tt much.
bt kind of feelin tt i wun click with him.
ipp startin on mon.
and i'm so goin to get ample of rest.
i've yet to go shoppin to get clothings. >whee. goin bugis later for shoppin later!
so shall update till nw. ((:

2010-09-08T01:54:00.003+08:00

well. perhaps it's time for me to get some update here.
perhaps i guess this is gonna b a lengthy post.
after all its been estimated more den two weeks that i've last posted.
this few wks had been really packed is wad i can say.
preparin for exams, helpin my uncle and so on and so for.
everything had slowly comin to an end.
even for exams. three down and left one.
can describe it as fine?!? i hope. wasnt really tt confident with one of de paper. ITSM.
hopefully its gonna b fine.
and in a few hrs tym i'll b able to knw on where am i posted to.
pls pls pls! get me a gd company!
anyway. the last few days even though its lyk really freakin pack.
till de pt tt some days i hardly gotten a wink of slp.
wad can i say is tt i appreciated those days.
de laughter and tired-ness tt had crept onto us.
thru out de whole festival, de day tt i enjoyed myself most was havin a supper after everything ended.
the amount of laughter we had, laugh till tears fallin off fr my eyes, stomach pain. LOL. hittin onto each other's head. LOL. really is great memorable.
ok. gtg for nw, nid to wak up early later. shall update another one which is more detailed after my exams.
erm. perhaps thurs? ((:
see you by den!

2010-08-17T21:12:00.001+08:00

startin to prepare for exam.
so wun b postin tt much.
readers, stay tuned ya?
take care and all the best to those that are preparin upcomin exams as well((:
lets mugged tgt!
its de final rd!
do it once do it gd!

2010-08-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

tym for a new post.
well. i didnt disappear alright. jux tt recently was quite busy.
nt with studies. bt something else. ((:
shall nt elaborate much on the past.
i spent my sat to b emcee. its quite ridiculous when they assigned an assistant for me.
whereby he sat outside of de rm thru out de whole session.
wore heels tt day. which cause de 2 big blister on my heel and toes!
and wad really pissed me off was my legs were hurtin lyk fk and yet ppl askin me go here and dere jux to do them a favour.
no choice bt to go.
ok. i admit my temper really went off this tym rd.
jux imagine alrite.
its been sometime everysince i really flare. ok. wadever.
sun. helped my parents as usual. was freakin tired and a super long day for me.
despite de tired-ness creep me i still insisted on postin this.
sometimes i really wonder. why ppl tends to change after sometime.
even if its only over a few days. theres still such a big changed over it.
or am i really tt freakin native or innocent to believe wadever it was mention previously?
ah. wadever i dun intend to bother anymore. i'm jux lookin forward and do what i'm required to do. i will nv take anymore initiation anymore.
i'm tired. tired till i dun wish to handle anymore. i'll simply let it go.

2010-08-12T00:16:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to myself((:

2010-08-10T22:16:00.003+08:00

well. its another wk.
and yet. i've yet to start preparin for exam.
no motivation for de tym bein.
perhaps shall start studyin after my birthday?
ytd was national day.
this yr i've planned it in such a way tt its a unique and memorable family day for my family.
its also so called an early celebration of my birthday too.
actually wanted to head off to east coast park.
bt everybody woke up late thus, changed of plan.
went to west coast park instead. went for kite flyin.
kind of awesome for a beginner lyk me.
went over to west coast area for our late breakfast early lunch.
its also kind of exaggerated when you see the amount of food ordered fr different stores.
too much for a 6 person servin tts wad i described.
stomach was bloated.
headed over to west coast park, prepared all de kites.
dere were so many kites ytd.
snake, octopus, jelly fish, butterfly, and many many more.
ours were 2 tigers.
bt de sun was too scorching thus didnt manage to snap any photos.
bt i did enjoy myself((:
went over to grandma's hse.
Wilson and baby Jordan was aslp when we reached dere.
and a few mins later baby Jordan was awake for milk. first impression was cute. hahaahha.
sis, bro and me went to disturb wilson. kind of funny. hahahaha.
hm after max.
took nap and watched ndp live at hm. watched fireworks as well. ((:
afterwhich went mall tgt wif sis to grab some stuff.
and its really first tym i see de mall was flooded with ppl.
perhaps due to de event held dere previously. hahahaha.
anyway. ytd was awesome((:

2010-08-07T16:32:00.002+08:00

Well. I'm bck once again for the wk. Have been blogging frequently this few wks. Nt tt I'm free or wadever shit. I jux felt tt dere is a need for me to speak up somewhere. Currently I'm colourin my hair at chapter2. No more brown hair. So let's say bubbye to my brown and white strains of hair ba. Wahahaha. Decided to dye purple instead((: dunno whether hw de outcome will b. Perhaps it will b great((: hahaha. I somehow saw abit of de colour effect alrdy. I think it will b lyk those damn red one. Gosh! Later dunno mum dey all will get shock anot. Hahahaa. Dangerous. By nvm. Wahahahha. Think tts all for nw ba.

2010-08-06T19:41:00.003+08:00

another post of the wk.
well. hw was ur day for you guys?
erm. for mine. i'm over the moon alrdy.
hahahha. nth much special. bt i'm pleased with de result of our last presentation.
really didnt expect such a gd remark fr de lecturer.
double excellent is wad we gotten fr her.
gd job to de girls of cos! ((:
this mornin was really late for class.
due to ppl rushin into my toilet!
bt nt as late as wad i expected. hahaha.
met huiling otw. trained to sch tgt.
chat some stuff with her too.
anyway. its been long i've ever heard sch celebratin national day.
mayb my pri sch was jux ard de corner and i could hear some of de songs fr my buildin.
its also been long. eversince we were required to dressed in red and white for the celebration.
hahaha. i was commentin to huiling. well. i'm in purple and blue today. and she replied sayin she is in white and grey. hahahaha.
trained bck hm aftermax.
and took a short short break, and gt woken up by daddy for lunch.
and returned bck to nap.
been really tired. haven been slppin well this few days due to AHEM.
hahaha.
dearest cousin came over and we had a great chat.
gt to knw quite a number of stuff fr her as well.
think tts all for nw ba.

2010-08-05T16:50:00.002+08:00

well. its thurs.
hw was ur day?
well. mine was quite alright.
nt tt happy afterall. bt i'm pleased to say tt i'm done with somebody's stuff.
de nxt thing tt i've gt to headache was hw to pass to her.
quite amazed tt i've completed at such as fast speed.
as i tot it wld b hard.
bt i've completed it in less den an hr.
this few days haf been thinkin alot of stuff.
seems to b complicated.
or haf i been thinkin too much?
i wun reveal too much for de tym bein.
tired!, shall take a nap for de tym bein. nitez ppl!

2010-08-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

well. today had mark de end of all our case study!
whee. even though nt really tt happy bt nvm. everything finally ended.
and and and. my white hair is stickin out one by one.
its really OMG can?
need to go dye alrdy.
purple?
chat alot with mrs lim jux nw.
and she was quite shocked when she heard me sayin out.
haha. well well well.
nt suitable to b written here. ((:
i'm tired. shall update again soon.

2010-08-01T03:34:00.002+08:00

Another postin. Well. I've yet to take a blink of rest. Had been watching ps man till this timin. Well. Ytd which is sat. Was a memorable day for me. First and foremost. Was baby steve jordon had reached our world. Even though can only see pic bt nvm. Dere will b chance soon. It's been so long to see a newborn in my family. Kind of looking forward. Nxt ytd marks the end of my first mth bein an emcee. Without help fr my supervisor, I'm real tired and my head was lyk havin war in there. bt everything still managed to get on smoothly. After tt met sis and bro at jp. Had shopped ard for mum's birthday present. We were celebrating earlier. Cos it falls on today which was sun. After max bus bck to our area. Had dinner at the new campus tt was recently constructed. Nt too bad I guess. Afterwhich. Hm swt hm. Went for a jog with bro. Startin fr my hse till de new ite campus fr dere ran down to teckwhye bck to de park behind my hse. Strolled bck to de petrol station to get some drink. Damn tiring. I dare to admit tt I walked quite abit also lo. Cos dunno why stomach suddenly cramp up. Freak man. Bt overall still ok. Currently havin muscle cramps here and dere. Bt nvm. It's goin to b worth it. A better bonding between us.

有时我真的是在想是不是自己想太多了？
为什么我会常常想到那个人呢？

2010-07-30T11:28:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps! I'm bck updating. Well. Wad shall I update? Sch? Erm. Sch had been stressful forde past few wks. Tts also part of my reason why I'm nt tt unhappy for the past few days. Jux felt tt it's too pressurizing, so suffocating. Well. I understand tt I'm alrdy in the third yr. And it's natural to feel that. Bt isn't it far too much? Somehow I felt tt my life had been freaking hectic since starting sch. No tym for enjoyment. When was my last tym tt I really enjoyed myself? Throwing all those problems aside and really have a gd laugh? Even I've missed count. Wa can I say my brain is filled with proj test codin. Hw to work? Hw to make it work? Who was dere to help me? Nobody? Yes! I'm seriously alone to face so much prob. Nt only sch work bt also family prob, communication prob. Sometimes hw I wish I could break down just lyk tt. Bt it didn't. I dun want to make my parents worried. The amount of tears I've fallen for this sem. Nobody knows. I can even put aside my pride and walked bck hm with tears on my face. I didn't even think before that I'll land into such a miserable situation. Who can help me? Nobody? The amount of things in me was overfilling. So much so tt I'm live buried by it. And I can sense tt my health was not really tt great either. I've become weaker and weaker be it physically or mentally. Have your ever gt de feeling, when you are super unhappy super moody the kind of feelin where the tears will roll off yr eyes at any moment and yet you still have to put on a smile. Yr mentality yr personality is constantly reminding you to hold on to yr tears. You are nt to cry in front of them. They are no one to you. Neither are they close with you. Yes. This line have been constantly repeating to myself thru out the sch life. Jux imagine. You were in my shoe. I wasn't even looking forward to sch. I've treated goin to sch as part of my responsibility. Nt a place for entertainment. My main objective was to grab all de knowledge fr de lecturer tts all. Yes I knw those ppl who have been with me thru out my 19 yes of life will definitely wun believe. Where is tt sunny carefree cheerful playful strong py? My ans Is it had diminished fr me. I'm nw weak no longer sunny no longer cheerful. Mayb what mrs L told me right fr de start was freaking correct. Nv ever b too gentle towards ppl. Some ppl will simply take advantage of it and climb over my head. I chose nt to listen and this is wad I get in return. Hw great is tt?

2010-07-19T19:52:00.001+08:00

no more holidays for me! ))))))))))))))):

2010-07-17T22:30:00.001+08:00

one sentence six words.
i'm looking forward to nxt sat.
even though dere are still tons of things for me to do.
bt i'm still willin to pull out my tym for tt.

2010-07-14T21:35:00.004+08:00

bck to postin.
had left this blog quite dead.
in fact its no tym for me to do updatin!
had been rushin proj.
proj proj proj. casestudy casestudy casestudy.
endless man.
bt one of de shoppin cart is done. part of de credits went to kate.
without her pdf i'm confirm rdy to b dead.
hee.
currently rushin on crm case study. and another case study called manufacturin industry in china.
dead man.
SI shoppin cart is also half way done.
connectionstring gt prob.
and when i was jux abt to work on my crm case study i jux realised my work all gone.
nt in my thumbdrive.
i was lyk OMG!
luckily managed to still find some pages bck.
ok tts all for nw

2010-07-03T12:49:00.001+08:00

its july!

2010-06-29T21:06:00.002+08:00

well. bck to update for the time bein.
didnt had any mood to do proj or tutorial for de tym bein
shall start at 10? hopefully.
erm. second half of de sem had started.
tym was much more packed den wad i expected.
in another 3 wks, it will mark de end of my study path.
and carried on with either fyp or ipp.
well. wad to say.
elaine was unpleased with the proj progress.
and was really screamin at us ytd.
bt among the 3 grps.
my grp still has de fastest progress. so we were quite spared.
managed to explained to her why we were progressin tt slow.
anyway. all my results for all those test before holiday had released.
although i didnt really score, bt i'm glad tt at least i passed.

dad and mum finally considered to haf some peace after several days of quarrelin.
i hope tt it will remain this way.
jux lyk de past.
after de whole incident.
seriously.
deep in my heart i'll definitely protest third parties, till my last breath.

2010-06-16T12:25:00.001+08:00

sometimes i really hope time could really turn bck jux in time for me to...

2010-06-13T09:19:00.002+08:00

Anyway. Previously had contracted with either rashes or hives. Nt tt sure wad tt was bt it's skin irritation. Gt quite bad and went to visit doc. Had an jab to remove the itch. Nv felt so itchy b4. Lyk monkey lyk tt. Bt nw is much much better!((: ytd spent my day makin new specs! Red colour! An did rebornin tgt with sis! Rebornin, treatment and cut cost me ard 80 bucks! Which I think is cheap! Hahaha. Specs cost ard 150. Think tts all for nw ba

2010-06-11T20:46:00.003+08:00

hey peeps!
its me, and its another update!
well. hw haf you guys been?
for mine, it haf been hectic!
believe me, there is no tym for relaxation in third yr!
no holidays, no term break, its lyk a bullet train!
schedule is pack pack and is still pack.
hmwk, assignments, labtest, writtentest, projects, case study.
its repeatin its cycle.
nt kiddin. tts hw my life went on, for the 1st half of my yr 3 sem 1.
its really worst den those final yr in sec sch, pri sch.
tym really flies!
cant imagine, hw much i dun enjoy my life in de present class, grumblin
the same old things eversince wk1 till nw. its been 2 mths!
i've managed to creep thru and survived for 2 mths!
and after sch start its goin to b one last mth,
before i really bid goodbye to my study path.
and its gonna b either my ipp or fyp tym!
i jux hope, wish i can get great partners and companies for both my ipp and fyp.
god bless me real hard pls!

i've alrdy decided to leave my fate of goin thru ipp or fyp first to god.
bt pls! bless me landin up somewhere gd!
ytd had a small gatherin with partial of my class.
partial attended while some were nt present due to different paths!
although its nt tt fantastic, bt i'm still glad tt even though we gt separated,
we still gt de chance of gettin partial of them to haf a meal tgt.
appreciated. think tts all for nw ba.

2010-05-30T16:26:00.003+08:00

Currently on Dad's bus. Doin nth much. This wk has a long wkend. Fri did nth much. Went out with family. And also went Jp with sis. I've bought a new pair of slippers. Original price 89 discount till left rd off 54? Nt very sure. And nite when over to help out with uncle. Ah yi, Wilson and wai po there also. Had a great day despite we didn't really sit down and haf de dinner tgt. Bt I'm still glad to see them ard. Sat spent most of my tym doin proj. Redo de idiotic Dell website and managed to get the calculation part workin. Haven really implement de database yet. While this mornin did add something to the gantt chat on my precious. Nt very sure whether is it correct. Shall confirm with arthi tmr durin her lecture. I think tts all ba. The upcoming wk and de following wk is goin to b hectic. God save me! Think tts all for nw ba. I need plenty of luck for the nxt 2 wks!

2010-05-22T10:54:00.003+08:00

its kind of busy upcomin wks
so i dun think will b bloggin tt much for de tym bein.
schedule had been pack.
so let my blog to rot for a period of tym.
i'll promise to come bck once i'm free fr my sch work.
take care ppl!

2010-05-15T17:11:00.002+08:00

shall update once again.
tym really flies.
sch has alrdy reopened for 1 mth!
this wk was quite a hectic wk.
presentation went sequentially for 2 days.
bt somehw i screwed up de first one.
which really makes me demoralize.
bt really thanks to all those encouragement.
even though it really broke me down when i heard de comments comin out fr her mouth.
even though i cried over it, makin my family get worried over me.
i really appreciate to all those encouragements.
a big big thanks to all!
it allow me to stand after tt fall.
and managed to get a 'C' durin comm skill presentation.
i could feel de big difference.
which was great.
work was also great this wk.
although its abit of rushin, bt its fine!
ytd went out tgt with the study clique tgt for our NE outin.
was pretty fun.
an eye opener for me.
of cos took alot of photos too.
bt dey were all with adam and weihao.
shall upload after dey upload.

PS: i think they will really take a long time. LOL.
think tts all for nw((:

2010-05-01T09:22:00.002+08:00

i'm simple, cheerful gal.
can b noisy and playful with my bunch of frens bt nt strangers.
i dun aim to b perfect cos nobody does.

i dun lyk commitments
cos dey were stressful for me.
i dun wan to b an adult
cos i'll nt b able to think as much fantasy as i was.

tts wad i thought in mind.
jux a space for me to jot down.
to remind myself.

2010-04-24T14:26:00.003+08:00

bck updatin((:
FINALLY! here comes my wkend!
bt i think dere is also nt much difference lo.
its only de beginnin of sem. i've alrdy gt so much things to do.
worst still. i dun haf de mood to do! dead!
case study case study case study!
none stop!
make me cant go to my so called my uncle's daughter full mth celebration! )))))):
sad sia.
bt i've packed my cupboard!
finally no longer messy!
threw some of it too.
actually its still on de bed.
seems lyk i haven really finished pack finish!
sian.
shall start doin my research soon. ))):

2010-04-21T19:57:00.003+08:00

bck updatin for the wk!
its de first wk of sch!
i can sense tt i dun really lyk my new classmates))):
i've been repeatin myself over and over again eversince mon!
hw bad can this b?
there are nt really much communications goin on fr one another.
everybody were jux in their own clique or in fact livin in their own world.
luckily i still gt jm with me!
lesson so far so gd((:
bt de bks are really thick!
i lyk de lesson for ytd and today!
today was jux because of de NE lesson!
goin out soon on wk3 to discovery centre with the whole class, and also some fr other diplomas.
after tt de other 2 outings will b on our own!
nice!
hahaha. tmr goin to b a long day!
9-6! OMG!
jm goin to trasfer over to ppl skill! hopefully it will b successful!
and nxt thurs she's goin to sch too! yay!
haha. think tts all for nw ba. goin to do hmwk soon. ((:
shall update again soon((:

2010-04-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

人生短短几十年，
今天不知明天事
这句话我非常同意！
人要等到失去了以后才来珍惜就太迟了！
我们应该把握我们现在所拥有的一切，而不是等到一无所有的时候才来后悔！
头没那么大就别带那么大的帽！
人要懂得知足！
currently blogging usin my phone. This few days was rather busy. Sad incident had happened to one of my relative. She had suddenly decended. Which really shocked me! Those who had managed to contacted me this few days wld haf knw this. Although she was nt really linked directly, bt I lyk her. When compared to those non human ppl in my tt big family. She was more friendly and cheerful. Wad really shocked me was I met her only ard a wk ago on gd fri, went out tgt and 扫墓, we were still havin laughter den, and nw, I'm attending het funeral! I didn't expect tt de nxt tym rd I met her is in this situation, this atmosphere. Life is really unpredictable. In another few hrs she's goin to leave us for gd. Of cos goin to attend the ceromony tmr. haiz. Nt in de mood to blog any further. Shall update again after tmr. When everything had ended.

2010-04-13T16:15:00.002+08:00

well. this shall b a new post for the wk.
time really flies.
timetable comin out tmr.
which means tt sch will b startin nxt wk.
this sem i'm really goin to work harder, and get my gpa bck!
after this yr, i'll b graduatin fr sch.
tts fast isnt it.
hopefully the timetable for this sem wun b tt yucky!

*i dunno why. bt i think i really gotten shocked eversince ytd, which i dunno why. i better get bck to myself real soon!

2010-04-08T13:24:00.004+08:00

bck postin for the wk.
tym really flies. in another 2 wks sch will starts.
lookin forward?
well. perhaps is a yes no ans ba.
this wk was really packed ultimately.
nt even a space of time for relaxation.
had met a weird person jux nw. added on msn.
which was really quite nuisance.
i asked him hw did he get hold of my fb and msn.
he replied as added randomly. well. you knw wad's my nxt line?
i guess you ppl wun believe it.
i replied sayin, den is it ok for me to delete randomly as well?
he said sure and of cos i deleted.
unexpected? ya. tts wad i tot of also.
its lyk so nt me!
mayb i gotten tt person's virus as well ba.
jux delete, in regardless hw many times.
bt i blocked tt person as well.
nt tt my actions are cruel towards him. jux tt his words i jux dun lyk it.
too bad he offended me. bt i've yet to delete him away fr fb.
its jux sooner or later i guess.
i'm nt someone tt can b messed up with. tts wad i can say!

2010-04-03T23:41:00.002+08:00

hello ppl~
is de day fine for ur? i hope it did, afterall its wkend!
bt i still haf to work, jux stepped into de hse ard an hr ago?
cooked maggie, cause i dunno wad to buy, and kind of tired.
jux completed my tt meal.
anyway. this is gonna b a long post. so bear with me awhile ya?
it started off rite fr ytd.
i woke up really early cos its qingming jie,
this yr my beloved cousin went wif us too.
prepared and went to our first stop, CCK columbarium.
well. was my 2nd tym dere. 1st tym was ard new yr, to pay offerin to my great grandparents and also greatgreat grandmother. sounds confusin isnt it?
nvm. i also confused myself. ((:
the sun was really scorching, before leavin dere my skin had alrdy darken.
upon leavin dere, there was a major jam within the area which delayed abit.
den went over to my grandfather's side, where de story came in.
haha, while thinkin bck its really hilarous.
haha.
first tym i experienced pushin de car.
gt quite excited.
i think because it rained de previous nite, and tt the soil was watery, and my dad's car wheel was struck within de mud area.
my sis, cousin and myself went down to push.
bt still nt valid.
when dere was suddenly a kind soul driver.
requested 2 of his relative to help us out, which was really out of my expectation.
bt one of them gt his pants dirtied. which i cant hold on to my laughter and started laughin. i knw i'm evil. haha.
bt really with their help, managed to get it goin after afew tries. ((:
was kind of thankful to them lo. haha.
afterwhich was my big aunt and also my late uncle's area.
reached hm 1 plus 2.
and i gt slightly burned by de sun. which caused uneven tone colour.
had a light lunch and off to work.
work was rather fine. chattin with aunty mary most of de tym.
as for today was rather fine too. and one of my 'neighbour' stall treated us with bubbletea somemore. bt too bad i dun drink milktea de. zz!
so let my 'neighbour' stall instead.
sounds lyk i'm makin frens all ard. haahhaa.
bt tts gd. hahaha.
think tts all for nw ba. shall brush up and slp soon.
tired. nitez ppl~

2010-04-01T08:27:00.002+08:00

hello ppl!
i'm bck again postin.
shocked to see me bloggin at this timin?
lol. i'm alrdy awake, despite de lateness i slept last nite.
finally, i completed one drama which i dragged for lyk almost 2 wks?
i knw i'm exaggerated, bt it's really true. cos i dun haf the mood to watch tt.
bt in de end, wad can i say is tt depite de borin beginnin, it had a nice endin.
of cos dere are also climax along the way.
as i was abt to headin to bed last nite, my cousin msged me sayin tt she's able to join my big family gatherin tmr.
had a small chat with her as well. ((:
erm. i guess mayb due to de weather nwadays, my throat is feelin abit unwell, nose abit watery alrdy. voice changes horribly at times. zz!
i dun wan to fall sick la. freak.
am i really tt weak anot?
where is de strong melinda, i used to b?
tmr goin cemetry to offer prayin to my elders.
its gonna b a big family gatherin. ((:
i think those bunch of retarded will b goin as well. zz!
wadever, who cares?
gt to work tmr after tt.
jp with aunty mary!
its been long eversince i worked tgt with her.
i knw ur will ask why i returned bck dere again!
lol. same reason, jux lyk previously.
bt nvm la. i of course will still work with the music sch if dere are schedules.
i think i gonna play dere tmr as well. ((:
i guess i wun b online-in this 2 days startin fr tonite ba
schedule kind of packed.
sat workin full as well.
bt nvm. wahahaha.
think thats all for the time being, b4 i start to crap ard alrdy.

2010-03-29T17:12:00.002+08:00

well. this few days were rather fine with me.
i'm either at work or stayin at hm, no where else.
this few days, i've been thinkin.
sequentially, day and nite over the conversation that i had between mrs neo.
wad she spoke was true.
bt i dun seem to haf any courage for me to land into that situation anymore.
why?
the answer have been hidden to the point tt even i myself also dunno.
its been followin in my shadow.
its been long. bt i dunno why, it jux wun leave me alone.
whenever i was goin to leave this shadow, it had slip thru my hand.
and off it went again.

ps: jux some random post.

2010-03-25T23:01:00.002+08:00

bck postin. ((:
today was pretty fine for me i guess.
trained down to yck to look for mrs neo today.
its obvious where i went to.
nyp! ya! its my sch!
amazin isnt it?
melinda.N returnin bck to sch durin holidays.
had a great chat with her too.
after max trained down to bg for work.
work was pretty fine too.
those teachers were discussin abt braces.
was listenin to them, perhaps i shall put it 2-3 yrs down de road?
did quite a number of stuff today too.
hardly gt tym for me to play wif my phone.
tmr gonna work dere again!
bt tts ok.
i think i'm still able to communicate wif de ppl dere.
de aunty dere treat me very gd also. ((:
lyk mummy lookin after daughter lyk tt.
haha.
think tts all for nw.
shall update again soon.

2010-03-23T09:52:00.006+08:00

ok.
as promised. to update my post after i gotten my results.
well. seems to b quite alrite.
to summarised, i passed all.
bt gpa still dropped.
i shall work harder this upcomin semester to get bck!
its kind of amazin tt i passed.
haha.
finally able to let go of the stone in my heart.
and slp peacefully tonite.
ytd went out to de beach with the 2 gals.
was quite fun, and of cos we updated each other with quite a number of stuff.
erm.
some shots from ytd.
bt some were nt well taken due to the brightness and i have to snap it somehw usin my sense?

the sun was damn scorching tt i could bearly open my eyes. zz!
of cos dere are many other shots too.
bt its nt with me!
shall update again once de gals had updated their blog too.

2010-03-20T20:44:00.003+08:00

i think i'll only start bloggin again after i gotten my results ba.
i've really gt no mood to blog this few days.
my mind was filled with worried-ness of results this few days.
i really wish, hope and bless that i'm able to creep thru.
best of luck to me!

2010-03-17T23:39:00.002+08:00

bck updatin.
well. tym really flies.
tmr gonna b thurs.
well hw did i spent my day today?
i woke up freakin early despite de lateness i slept last nite.
gt prepared and trained down tgt with my sis to bukit batok to wait for one of her fren.
as she was drivin us down to town for one of de private sales.
upon reachin dere, de queue was lyk OMG?
really will jaw drop when you see the amount of ppl dere.
and we were nt even late.
still gt ard 15 mins more to space.
and of cos we joined de queue immediately lo.
first tym i was wonderin where all this ppl came fr.
its really i cant see the end of the queue.
i can only see ppl kept on walkin towards de end.
i'm nt exaggerated.
its really true.
actually wanted to shot some pics. bt i'm short and also de crowd makes me lazy to do so.
and de whole buildin was covered with ppl.
it only one word description again, squeezy.
and i simply hate ppl who squeeze with me.
some even worst dun see de way dey walkin. and those bulky items kept on knockin onto me.
and gt once when i was queuein up for the payment there is this aunty. carryin a big box behind her which i dunno wad de hell it was. and she was tryin to squeeze thru that small gap between de person behind me and me. and she didnt even realised that her tt box alrdy hurt me! and still keep on tryin to pull thru.
nt tt i dun wan to let her pass thru, jux tt i'm alrdy standin real close to the person in front of me, and dere are ppl ard me den wad more she expect?
no choice i jux stared at her when she turned ard. well. at least she still apologize.
afterwhich had breakfast and lunch nearby.
and my sis asked me where to go due to its really still early for her seminar.
and as we were close to orchard central, i suggest tt to her.
den she was down dere askin me why i brin her dere.
and i told her tt dere was no harm walkin ard since i hardly stepped in dere.
and i found something interestin in dere.
i noticed dere was a luge of dunno which fm, and its on air.
bt i didnt walk near, den out of my curiosity, i asked my sis whether is it tt de place tt dj holdin their jobs?
den she gave me a cute ans la.
she asked me to walk close and on my fm on my phone and listen whether is it the things that de dj talks similar to wad was played thru my phone. i was lyk ok. fine.
-_______________________-!
and i gave her even a nice ans.
hahaha. guess wad?
i told her dere is no such thing of fm on my phone!
LOL. gd qn requires gd ans isnt it?
bt wad i can say was tt de place was really a nice place.
i was really lyk wah!
its totally identical in 'hi,my sweetheart' tt drama.
it really exist!
afterwhich accompanied my sis to a seminar, named, changes to foreign worker levies.
cos i was nt wearin tt formal, my sis dragged me to go and buy jeans. and i was lyk i dun wan. cos nt matchin at all. in de end she still suceeded askin me to dress in that manner.
almost fell aslp durin the seminar, luckily mrs neo msged with me awhile.
if nt really throw face!
knew something new today, although i still abit unsure, bt at least i still made clear some stuff.
the way ppl walkin up to the mic, the way they speak is like so professional!
i think i nid sometime to trained till tt standard ba.
everything ended ard 5.
and took bus hm, reached hm 6 plus.
slack awhile and took a nap cos really cant stand alrdy!
and slept all the way till 10 plus.
i think i nid to b owl tonite alrdy.
think tts all for nw ba.
detailed enough?
hahaa.
its a long post for today!
advanced nitez ppl!

2010-03-16T20:13:00.002+08:00

well. its a brand new wk for everyone.
hopefully everyone are doin fine.
((:
had been slackin all this while.
jux report to work for once a wk?
which was really damn pathetic isnt it?
actually dere was supposed to be an upcomin interview for me this comin thurs.
bt i'm still unsure of whether is it still on, as the person had nt contact me yet.
this wk gonna work on thurs, at marsiling.
ok. better den none.
this 2 days had been sleepin late, had been watchin drama.
and yes, i've finally finished tt show.
even though de endin doesnt really seems to b appealin to me.
today heard fr dad tt de new elevator will b startin tmr.
which means someday lata, dey will demolished de another, which will land up wif only one elevator that is near my unit.
results comin out in another wk.
i really hope and wish tt everything will passed, all i desire was a pass will do nth much.
gonna go shoppin tgt wif my sis tmr.
well, bt hw come i somehow doesnt really look forward.
and ya!
i'm desperate for jobs! any recommendations?
i simply cant stand ppl callin me serveral tyms in an hr!
it really pissed me off! damn it.

2010-03-13T20:52:00.003+08:00

bck updatin again. ((:
today was considered to b quite tirin day for me ba.
perhaps due to slppin late last nite and wakin up early this mornin.
was glad to say tt i still manged to wake up on time. snooze only once.
ytd reach hm ard 1am.
went out with mrs neo. and its really, we haf been chattin alot.
even though its only 1 wk tt we didnt seen each other.
glad to say tt the bondin is still there amount de ppl doin fypj.
jiayous!
was hearin alot of stories which were humourous.
and of cos some shockin news which is nt convient to b mentioned here.
well.
i guess de impression tt i had to tt particular person is gettin fr bad to worst den.
after listenin to wad mrs neo had told me.
its really far too much to do such things.
i dunno wad will b her reaction when that victim will realised hw she was treated upon it after all her endless hardwork.
so i dun intend to mention anything, shall keep it as a small secret among de minority.
anyway it will nt b nice.
took quite a number of pics.
bt all is still wif mrs neo.
hahaha. in her camera.
shall update once i get it fr her.
ling didnt managed to join us in de end, due to her work today. i understand. ((:
shall meet her one of de days soon. ((:
todays work was pretty fine.
was sendin reminders to students. which was quite cool actually.
it took me quite some time to check each teacher's attendance file and to go thru each student.
chat awhile too.
and ding dong its knock off tym.
trained hm after work, didnt even bother to hang out anywhere.
one word to description, i'm totally shag.
took a nap after i reached hm. nt immediately bt a few hrs later.
i'm still feelin damn sleepy lehh.
i think i'll slp early tonite.
haha.
tts wad i said in advance, later is de other way rd.
woke up and had dinner tgt with my parents.
chatted with them over some stuff.
was quite ok.
havin a comversation with them. ((:
i can feel tt i can talk to them anything alrdy. its a great improvement to me.
instead of keepin quiet.
of cos. some of the stuff we had de same thinkin too. ((:
i think tts all for nw ba.
shall continue with my drama.
shall update again soon. ((:
advance gd nite ppl!

2010-03-10T20:15:00.003+08:00

hello peeps.
i'm here for the other post of the wk.
hopefully today was also a glad day for everyone too((:
well. for today.
actually there wasnt much to do.
woke up at 9.30 initially bt due to my laziness,
i'm struck on my bed till 10am.
haha.
and only wash up only ard 10 plus 11.
was in my rm all the while.
had breakfast and got prepared by 12pm.
the weather is still as usual, freakin hot.
waited for my cousin b4 boardin to one of de cab.
and de funny part was tt grandma and de driver had great communication between each other.
if others doesnt knw, dey will thought tt perhaps its a family outin.
haha.
and dere was my cousin and myself talkin and laughin to ourselves.
haha.
its lyk as though dere was a boundary which separates us into 2 different world.
as we reached dere quite early, we went to walk ard in dere.
and returned bck to the clinic.
and of cos de 3 of us were laughin at all sorts of things that we made fun with.
damn funny.
haha.
well, gt to return bck 2 yrs later.
and tt cousin gt beloved dun wan me.
haha.
went out wif her beloved.
LOL.
reached hm ard 5?
the driver overshot my hse. )):
bt nvm i still reached my hse.
erm. wad shld i do tmr?
shall update again soon ba.

2010-03-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

hello bloggers!
hw was ur day?
mine was still quite alrite.
at least i'm nt pulled out of bed today.
haha.
woke up at ard 9 plus 10.
and managed to chat wif mrs neo on the net after her lunch break.
and gt to knw fr her de standards of fypj.
and heard tt some topics were usin java language.
which we didnt even learnt tt b4.
i just hope i wun be de unlucky one.
and once again de sch had also separated those ppl in fypj into different grps.
tts cruel isnt it?
i think they have a hobby of teastin students by givin hard topics as well as separatin them from the frens.
trained down to je to help mum to enquire some stuff at the cpf buildin.
afterwhich walked over to imm.
the weather is damn freakin hot.
burnin me up.
walked dere for awhile b4 takin bus bck.
otw bck it started pourin.
well. it may b a gd sign.
bt i doesnt haf any habit of bringin umbrella along when i go out.
those closed to me shld realised tt. haha.
no choice bt to alight at lot1 and trained bck.
and you knw wad.
when i've reached lot1. the pourin rain had became drizzle.
freak isnt it.
reached hm washed up and continued with my drama.
tts of cos de ok.
hahaha.
played colours on my nails too.
hahaha.
i think tts all for today ba.
tmr still haf to accompany grandma and perhaps my beloved cousin to sgh for regular checkup.
shall msg her whether she gotten her off day for tmr soon.
hahaha. a great actoress in the further!
shall update again tmr!
advance nitez ppl!

2010-03-08T17:34:00.003+08:00

ok.
bck postin.
my blog is considered to be done for nw.
i'm still hesitatin.
shld i change background to single tone or current one is better?
comments ppl?
yet to find a nice pic yet.
jux came across this pic so jux use it for the moment.

hw pathetic it is for me to slp purely 5.5 hrs durin holiday!
slept ard 2.30am early mornin and gt pulled out of bed by mum today at 730am.
opps.
corrections. it shld b 5 hrs in detailed.
accompanied grandma to polyclinic for her monthly checkup routine.
reached hm ard 12 plus.
those 2 little brat came.
and talkin to me non stop.
whereby i'm really irritated by them.
editted the skin and
once again revealin it to public.
shall slp real early tonite.
i'm exhausted!

2010-03-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

i feel lyk changin my blogskin.
its been sometime eversince i did tt.
tt long tt de codes seems to be totally stranger with me.
erm. hw shld i design it this tym rd?

2010-03-03T22:32:00.002+08:00

well. today was jux another day for me.
nt a restless day, jux tt i did a number of stuff too.
bt i'm too lazy to list one by one.
and do you guys knw wad?
i aim to loss weight durin this holiday.
my goal is to be ard 40-43.
yes! thats my ideal weight!
shall work on it!
gambatei~